superym's asylum

parting time

2008-05-04T22:38:00.005+08:00

goodbye BLOGGER!

hello MULTIPLY!

oo. for real na to.
babayooooo na talaga dito
lipat bahay na ko.
kitakits dun ha.
pero once in a while blog hop ako sa inyo.
dami ko mamimiss.
dalaw din kayo minsan ha.
paalam.

a bit distorted

2008-04-01T03:13:00.006+08:00

my 2nd home. tambayan ko lately. tambay kayo minsan.
HIATUS ULIT AKO DITO.

break a leg to my friend CHELE
she's nominated at the 2008 candy teen blog awards.
please do vote for her.

goodluck..

2008-03-29T15:48:00.004+08:00

sa totoo lang wala akong masabi.
kasi hindi siya worth it pag-usapan.
natatawa lang ako sa eksenang nangyari.
sobrang hanggang ngayon, natatawa pa din ako.
kahihiyan --- oo, mismo, nakakahiya pero..
ikaw ang may gawa.

wala kang pinagkaiba kay PABLO!
i am so mean, i know.
basta i hate you.
shocks..
shocks..

hindi man lang tumindig balahibo ko sayo.
hindi ko sasayangin ang ganda ko ngayong summer sayo!
hahaha..

tingnan na lang natin kung sino ang "PATAPON ANG BUHAY".
nakakasuka ka.

happy 2nd bday my dear baby VOTCHIK!!

2008-03-20T20:28:00.004+08:00

it was suppose to be a children party pero...
ang mOmmy, pretty ninangs and tita's ang super nag-enjoy.
hahahaha.
LOVE YOU ANAK..

anyways, super saya that night. It was really a night to remember.
ngayon ko na lang kasi ulit nakasama mga friends ko from dasma.
i mean, yea, we do meet sometimes pero yung ganitong bonding ngayon na lang ulit.
tska..
tska..
yung mga naiwan na lang yung may alam nun.
hahaha.

lalaine and bam took vids that night kaya lang it was only taken through phone kaya medyo nag pixelate siya. pero i don't care lalagay ko pa din siya dito sa blog ko.
nakakatuwa kasi siya, it was my pretty friend kasi -- bev who's actually on the video.
first time ko siyang marinig na kumanta. well, i do know na she has talent but dang, ang galing niya. super *clap-clap* to the maxx talaga ako for her.. i love her voice kasi e. pang acoustic talaga.

there..
don't mind na lang the vid, listen nalang to her voice.
10k per set daw.
hahaha.
eto pa.
ako naman..

wapakels.. party people ako at wala ako sa tono.
basta ang saya ng gabing to.. SUPER!!!!

i love the night life

2008-03-19T09:18:00.008+08:00

game.

last, ewan ko ba the exact date. (ayoko magisip) nagpunta ako ni ric.
siyempre super excited ako kasi makikita ko na naman ang love of my life ko.
ilang days din toxic sa school dahil sa mga pagmumukha ng mga prof ko, isama mo na din ang mga classmates kong, urghhh. so everytime kapag pumupunta sa kanila, super nakakatanggal ng stress.
i don't know if it's because of the happy ambience sa house nila or because of his nephew clyde or dahil lang sa miss ko na si ric.
ewan unexplainable.
basta alam ko siya ang stress reliever ko. . . . : )

so sinundo nila ako ni clyde sa festi ng mga around.. ewan ko din kung what time.
ayeeeeeeeeee. para akong batang kinikilig nung nakita ko siya.
super.
saya ko pa kasi si clyde unang bumati sakin.

"tita rym... (sabay hug)"

ang sweet nung bata - kaag hindi makulit. hehe.
well, sila ang mga bagay na hindi ko itratrade sa kahit na anu o sino.

ok back to my story..
so ayun.
pag uwi sa house nila.
uhm..
gimik mode naman.
wohoooo.
we went to pacita together with ate mav, jj, ker and gani boy.
pagdating namin sa place andun na si mia and sir eugene - former boss ni ric.
ang saya lang. hehehe.
kasi the last gimik ko is nung january pa.
saya lang kasi minsan lang to e.
plus kasama ko pa si ric.

rick, me, gani and ate mav

sir eugene, mia, ate mav, mom ni dei-dei and kerwin

sayang hindi ako nalasing..
gusto ko pa naman magpakalasing kapag kasama ko si ric.
hahahaha.
walang tama ang 2 san mig.
hahaha.

enjoy lang......

YES, i am back

2008-03-17T17:20:00.003+08:00

6 na araw at kalahati akong nawala sa sirkulasyon.
namiss ko to.
namiss ko.

masaya ako sa mga nakaalala.
kahit papaano may mga naituturing na rin akong mga kaibigan dito sa loob ng blogosperyo..
isa sila sa mga dahilan kung bakit ako nag-eenjoy sa pagstay ko dito.
mas masaya keasa sa tunay na mundo.
JOKE!
:churva. ishna. apple. janelleregina. berlai. kuku. miaRN. cindy. anino. chele.

SO LITERALLY I AM BACK.

hehe.
tapos na ang lungkot-lungkot-an moments ko.
i am happy now, not super pero happy enough para makatawa na ako.
sa loob ng 6 na araw na pagkawala ko, parang same old shit ang nangyari.
pero eto ang pinakamalupit na high-lights sa halos isang linggong pagkawala ko.

sa ADBMS class ko. together my ferocious professor (F.P.):
we're actually having a quiz? or long quiz that day, and at the same time kelangan na namin ipa-evaluate yung website sa coordinator ng BSBA.
after namen natapos ni mac yung quiz...

MAC: Sir tapos na po kami. Pwede po bang magpaalam papacheck-an lang po namin tong site namen?
F.P.: Bakit? Saan yan?
RYM: Sa webpage po. e sir, tapos na po kami. Please po sir important lang.
F.P.: E bakit sa subject ko pa? Duon kayo. Umupo kayo. (sabay angat ng leeg...)
Shit. Todoink. Tablado na naman. Badtrip.
(pagbalik sa seat)
MAC: Ate Rym, pabayaan mo na. Hahahaha. Ayusin mo yang mukha mo.
KUYA WALTER: hahahahaha.
RYM: E kasi tapos na nga ayaw pang magpalabas e. Wala naman nang gagawin e.
(magparinig ba daw?)

...after ng ilang hours i went home. hinayaan ko na yung mga kagroup ko na humanap ng mageevaluate sa website na nagawa namen. E ewan ko ba sa mga yun kung bakit si F.P. pa ang napili nilang gawing evaluators. E di ayun napahiya lang sila.

F.P.: Anu yan? Website? Ayokong check-an yan.
CLASSMATES: Sige na po sir. Eevaluate niyo lang po, please.
F.P.: Yan ba yung kay Panergo? Ayokong check-an yan. Kanina minadali nila quiz nila tapos nagparinig pa.
MAC: Sir hindi po ako yun, si Ate Rym lang po.
(Alam mo MAC, honestly minsan wala ka talagang kwenta. Manisi ba daw. Oo i know binara ko si Sir pero hindi mo kelangan magcomment ng walang kwenta. Or magdrop ng name. Ewan ko ba. Isa na lang... bibinggo ka na din sakin. Mapapasama ka na sa mga HATE-LIST ko sa school!)

..ang ending tablado pa din sila kay Sir. Pero ok din, kasi yung mga nakuha nameng panelists e, super ok. Thank you po, ang tataas ng grades namen.

as of now yan muna...
hehehehe.
andito ako sa ibang mundo.
hindi pa tapos ang araw ko dito.
pero basta.

I AM BACK...

am i?

2008-03-11T21:47:00.005+08:00

mismo.
mismo.
kailangan.
babalik ako.
kelan?
saglit lang naman to e.
pahinga mode muna.

andito lang ako sa loob,
magmamasid.
makikitambay.
hintayin niyo ko ha.

my first award

2008-03-09T11:17:00.000+08:00

after my 1st tag, 1st award naman.
Given by CHELE, my OL' TIME BUDDY! super miss her.

ayeeee. touch ako.
kahit walang kwenta nangyayari sakin lately,
masaya pa din sa blogosperyo.

anu ba naman RYM!!! hindi ka na super!

2008-03-08T20:33:00.003+08:00

ewan ko ba, lately palaging nalang akong galit sa mga posts ko.
kung hindi naman malungkot o depress.
kanina masaya naman ako.
andito si james.
napaka positibo niya kasi.
nagiging positibo ako.

pero pagkaalis niya.....
wala na.
lungkot na naman.
sobrang lungkot na gusto kong umiyak.
hindi nga ako makatawa e.
kasama ko mga kagrupo ko.
ang saya nila.
ako ni hindi makangiti.

ewan ko.
ewan ko.
hay.

pero hindi ako watdapaksiyet emo.
i don't consider myself as one.
i just can't explain why i'm feeling this way.
anu ba meron?

deppression

2008-03-07T21:19:00.003+08:00

ilang araw mo na kong binubulabog.
hindi magandang pakiramdam.
hindi magandang senyales.
tanginaaaa, ang hirap!

bakit ka ba kasi palaging nandyan?
oo alam kong si rick lang an pwedeng makiusap sayo para umalis.
pero paano kung wala siya?
paano na ako?

naisipan kong bumili ng isang beer.
sanmig lang naman e.
haaaaaay, sarap.
pwede din pala siyang makiusap sayo.

ayusin mo.
sarap bumuntong-hininga.
nakakatulong.

sir..... AAYUSIN KO NA PO BUHAY KO! pakyu!!!

2008-03-06T06:17:00.002+08:00

79 - 69 - 73 - ?

kamusta naman yun?
makabawi pa kaya ako.
tangina, kahit umiyak ako ng dugo wala na akong magagawa.
kahit kailan ang bobo ko.
masyado akong kampante.
ubod pala talaga siya ng walang kwenta.
wala akong masabi kundi
TANGINAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

1st time..

2008-03-04T23:29:00.001+08:00

Yes. It's my first time to be tagged by someone.
Thanks Chele ----- miss yah girl!!!

So in return, i have to:
- link to your tagger and post these rules.
- list (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.

8 random facts about me:

8. i can be nice and mean at the same time.

7. i don't eat doughnuts. so if ever you want to bring pasalubong to me. don't you dare to bring doughnuts [in any kind], i won't eat that.

6. i love to eat but i don't get fat.

5. i'm a poser.

4. if i start to pinch or punch or slap you, that means we're close. hahaha.

3. i'm super sensitive.

2. i'm an internet addict.

1. love RICK & my family so so so much.

ok, it's my turn to tag my fellow cyber friends.
DAKILANG TAMBAY
SWEETASAPPLE
MADILIM NA KASAYSAYAN
ILOVEMISHA
CASEY CHINITA
KUKU
EMOTERANG CHURVA
MERYL - BLUEPUFF

there you are.
enjoy.

thoughts to ponder:

2008-03-04T20:57:00.001+08:00

"nobody dies a virgin cause life fuck us all"

movie marathon

2008-03-03T20:10:00.008+08:00

Last Saturday nanuod kami ng movie ni Rick, Ate Mav and Katalus Clyde.

At first hesitant ako kasi wala akong background sa papanuorin namin.
HIndi ko masabi ng ayos yung title ng movie.
I ask Rick kung anu papanuorin.
He said something like, spiderick.
Anu daw?
Spiderick? [ name niya yun e.] O spider ick? O Spider nick?
Hehehe.
Hindi na ako nagtanong.
9pm.
Oo 9 pm na kami ng makarating sa movie house.
LFS na.
Huwalangya first time kong makapag LFS.
Don't ask why.
Mahabang istorya.
Ah, ganoon pala yun.
Ganoon kaya sa lahat.
Hahahahaha.
I don't want to elaborate.
Magmumukha akong tanga.
Hahahahaha.
Wag na magreact at blog ko to.
Ayun, SPIDERWICK pala yung papanuorin namin.
Ilang araw din siyang nilalambing ni Clyde sa tito Noi niya.

Actually the film was nice.
Nakakatawa na nakakagulat na medyo scary.
Scary kasi yung face ng mga goblins and the ogre.
Maganda siya.
Pambata.
Tawa kami ng tawa dun sa piglet na umaakyat sa mga puno and mahilig sa birds.
Nakakatouch din yung scene nung nagkita si Uncle Spiderwick and yung daughter niya.
Yun.
Medyo maiksi yung film pero worth it naman siya.

We went home.
Kinabukasan....
Waaaah, walang magawa.
So ayun, nuod kami DVD ni Rick.

Yea, Sydney White.
Napanuod ko trailer nito sa ETC.
And i find it nice.
Go Amanda Bynes.
Like the movie.
Sana sa pinas may ganoon ding university.
Next...

Akala ko Korean film to.
Nakita ko to sa blog ni cindaaaay e.
Ok naman siya.
Ang cute ni Juno.
Ang cute niya magsalita.
Parang ang matured-matured na niya sa movie.
Pero sabi 20 years old na siya in real life.
Sa movie kasi 16 lang siya e.

After niyang 2 movies na yan.
Eto naman tinapos ko kanina.

season 3.
Maganda pala siya.
Hindi din kasi ako mahilig sa mga foreign TV series.
Nakikita ko siya sa Chan23, pero hindi ako ganoon kahook.
Pero last night noong napanood ko siya.
Thank you Ate Mav.
Ikaw ang movie Guru ko.
Same with my Rick.
Hahahaha.
Yun na yun.
I love Jennifer Love Hewitt.
I'm a fan.

Next...
Mamaya...
After nito..

Sorry, hindi talaga ako marunong magkwento.
Hindi ako pwedeng story teller.
Just watch those films and you will know what i'm talking about.

lesson 101 - magcounterstrike

2008-02-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

kauwi ko lang from school.
well, atleast kahit papaano naging productive ako ngayong araw na to.
well, i learned something new, and it's nice.
mlamang matutuwa si rick sa bagong natutunan ko.
ayeeeeeee.
kalokohan! hahaha!
by the way, free counterstrike kami kanina sa subject namen kay sir bermie.
1 hour kaming hinayaan ng prof kong makipagbarilan and kung mas madali mo siyang nainstall naku pwede ka pang mag-extend ng 30 mins.
actually, part siya ng lesson namen sa data communication and networking,
installation ng lan games.
kamusta naman yun, cs mode kami ng mga classmates ko.
e nakakatuwa nun, marunong na kong mag network.
yey!
tapos..
tapos..
paglabas sa room, madaming tao sa baba ng building..
andun, sina dennis, tin, allan, brenda, rico at iba pang mga kasali sa wire org.
ah, yun pala yun, may mini concert sila sa school.
ALL ABOUT LOVE ang tema.
siyempre, february ee.
so sinama ako ni tin para makawatch ng show.
ang galing, nakakatuwa talaga.
ang galing ni ate mae.
she manage to organize the whole show/event pero hindi pa din siya mukhang haggard ha.
tapos ang galing din ng church nila, nakikipag colaborate sa school namen.
sana talaga.
sana talaga.
sa wednesday.....

Papa God, namove po ako kanina sa show. ang ganda po.
I know start na po ito ng pagiging mas close ko sa inyo.
Thank you for allowing me to know those people
Ang galing niyo po talaga Papa God.
I love you po.

books.. books.. books..

2008-02-29T12:48:00.000+08:00

onga pala, may pinahiram na book sakin si mae.

salamat ha.mmm, ayan..
ano ba tawag jan?
self-help?
kelangan ko pa ba yan?
hahaha.
why not?
anyways, another book to read.
meron pang isa.
kasunod.thanks mae ha.
kitakits sa fellowship.

onga pala, para kay SYBIL.
diyan ka muna kay yong ha.

makapag moment nga!?

2008-02-29T12:38:00.000+08:00

bakit ang ibang estudyante kapag uuwi ng bahay galing school,
palaging may reklamo na, "oh, my god, pagod na pagod ako" or "grabe, haggardness" o "waaaaaaaah, toxic sa school!".
kailangan ba talaga na may pag-iinarte?
anu naman bang nakakapagod sa pag-upo maghapon at tumunganga sa propesor mo?
mas nakakapagod pang maglakad sa quadrangle ng iskul niyo
o magpaikot-ikot sa harapan ng crush mo
at magpanik-panaog sa hagdan ng eskwelahan niyo't makipagtakbuhan.
hay, mga estudyante nga naman.
hindi nila alam na mas masarap ang mag-aral kesa
sa magtrabaho't kumita ng pera.
mas nakakapagod magtrabaho lalo na kung tamad na tamad ka na
dahil sa araw-araw ng ginawa ng diyos, yun at yun ang ginagawa mo.

Oo nga't ganoon din sa pag-aaral.
araw-araw kang pumapasok sa iskul bukol niyo at araw-araw mong nakikita mga klasmeyts mong ubod ng garapal sa pangongopya sayo at mga propesor mong kulang na lang kainin ka sa sobrang sungit.
pero atleast sa pag-aaral, sustentado ka ng nanay mo. araw-araw may baon kang pera na walang kahirap-hirap. isang sahod lang ng nangangapal sa kalyo mong mga kamay kalalaro ng dota sa nanay mo, jaran! may 100 pesos ka na. pero kung mayaman-yaman ka 150 pesos plus pandesal with hotdog pa. kumpara sa kung nagtratrabaho ka na, problemado ka pa sa araw-araw na pamasahe mo papasok ng opisina. wala pa kasing akinse naubos mo na ang pera mo, naibigay mo na sa nanay, binili mo ng bagong t-shirt para pag biyernes, may bago ka na namang damit. ang natira, kailangan mo pang ibudget hanggang mag katapusan.

Isa pa, pumasok ka at hindi choice mo yun, walang boss na magagalit sayo at bibilangan ka kung ilan na ang absent mo sa isang cut-off at may pagbabanta pa na sa susunod na absent mo may makikita ka na sa lamesa mo na memo galing HR. walang ganun. yun nga lang sa pag-aaral, kung talagang ubod ka na ng tamad pumasok, kausapin mo na ng madalian ang teacher mo at sabihin mong idrop ka na lang niya kasi tinatamad ka ng pumasok sa subject niya. DROP lang. anu ba naman yung madrop, mauulit mo naman yun sa susunod na sem, at kung ayaw mo pa next year, pwede pa naman e.

Kapag nagtrabaho ka, darating at darating ang oras na mabobore ka.
JADED, BURNED-OUT, BORED, EXHAUSTED, DULLED, OVER-FATIGUE, FED-UP at kung anu-anu pang, pamboring na salita ang magagamit mo.
E paano yun, wala ka na namang choice kundi magtrabaho lang e.
tapos ka na ng pag-aaral.
ganun lang naman ang cycle of life.
mabubuhay ka, magiging bata, mag-aaral sa elemantarya, hayskul, kolehiyo, magtatapos, magtratrabaho, mag-aasawa, magkakaanak, magkakaapo at mamatay.
Kaya savor things before it lasts.

Mag-aral kang mabuti, mabuting-mabuti.
Pahalagahan mo mga classmates mo.
Dahil darating ang panahon na ultimo ang classmate mo na sobrang kinaiinisan mo o yung classmate mong ubod ng baho at may putok, mamimiss mo.
Maraming nagsasabi na kesyo iba pa din ang high-school.
Oo totoo pero, iba din ang kolehiyo.
Masaya, totoo, at iba pa...

Basta kung anu man yung message na napulot niyo dito, yun na yun.
Enjoy lang sa lahat ng bagay.
Don't rush things.

can you help me? -- usher?

2008-02-28T10:20:00.000+08:00

sana may maibulong ako mamaya.
madami kasi akong gustong sabihin.
kaya lang panay ang bugbog sakin.
walang tumutulong tumayo.
lahat may kanya-kanyang bumubugbog.
susubukan ko.

jinggol muna ako.

myself won this time

2008-02-28T10:12:00.000+08:00

binabanatan na naman ako ng katamaran ko.
bugbog na bugbog na niya ko.
tamaaaaaa na.
lalaban na ako!!
waaaaaaaaa..
blag.. blag.. ^@%&@#)$(*#^
ayun.
natalo din kita.

PAPASOK NA AKO!

water deprivation

2008-02-26T02:18:00.000+08:00

"Anu to?"
Wala akong magawa kundi mapaSIYET pagsakay ko ng dyip papuntang eskwela.
Patingin-tingin ako sa aking braso hanggang balikat.
"Nakita ko na ito e"
Bulong ko sa aking sarili.
Tama, eto nga iyon.
Siyet san ko nakuha to?
Naligo lang ako ganito na.
Naulanan lang ako noong huwebes, nagkaroon na ako ng ganito?

Pagbaba ko sa tapat ng aking eskwelahan,
wala pa din akong tigil sa pagsipat sa buo kong braso,
muntikan na nga akong mabangga ng isang kakarag-karag na dyip.
"NAMO! PAKYU KA!"
napamura tuloy ako ng wala sa oras.
Hay.
Pag akyat ko ng building, hindi ko alam pero bigla akong nanghina.
Literal.
Hindi ko kayang tumayo ng matagal.
Masakit ang mga tuhod ko.

Wala pa din akong tigil sa pagtingin sa aking mga braso.
Hanggang sa....

CLASSMATE 1: Hala ate, anu nangyari sayo?
CLASSMATE 2: Anu yang nasa mukha mo? Parang namaga.
AKO: Bakit? Anu nangyari? Eto pa nga oh, sa braso ko. Anu to?

Biglang singit si Gardo..

GARDO: Ayan karma yan, inaasar mo kasi si *toooooot*. Binulutong ka na din.
AKO: Pakyu. Hahaha. Pahiram nga ng salamin.

Waaaaaaah, anu to?
Mas lalo akong nanghina. Ampanget ko. Para na ngang pinutakte ang mukha ko.
Bulutong ba ito?
Hindi.
Alam kong hindi ito yun.
Pinilit ko pa din matapos ang aking eksam noong araw na iyon.
Sayang naman kung hindi ko pa tatapusin.
No sweat naman yun sakin.

Paguwi ko ng bahay....

MOM: Tapos na klase mo?
AKO: Opo.
MOM: (Pasigaw) Aaaaay, anu nangyare sa mukha mo!?
AKO: Bakit? Anu yun?
MOM: Ayan o.
AKO: Wala yan.
MOM: Hoy, Rym2, naka-ano ka ba ha?

Watdapak!
Nakaano daw ako?
Nakaano ba ako?
Nakasinghot ako marahil ng napakaraming alikabok at polusyon kaya nakakuha ng maraming virus at kumalat sa buo kong katawan.
haller mom!?

MOM: Oh, nilalagnat ka. Magpahinga ka na!

Naku hindi maaari. May obernayt pa kami sa softawre engineering. I can't afford to neglect this subject kahit sa true-to-life uber imbyerna na ko sa mga nangyayari. Imagine, natuloy ang obernayt pero kahit konting usad, walang nangyari, as usual, panay borlog ang nangyari. Ikaw na ang may-ari ng bahay, magreformat habang gumagawa ng project. Kung mataba utak mo sana ginawa mo na yan prior mag ovenight? Pasalamat ka at kahit papaano nakatulog ako.

Kinabukasan, pinilit ko pa din pumasok sa "same subject", kailangan, pasahan ng system e.
Pero hindi na kinaya ng powers ko. Nanghihina na ako maigi at parang kinakausap ako ng aircon at sinasabing magtagal pa ako ng kaunti doon sa loob ng room, papatayin na niya ako sa lamig.
Hindi ko na tianpos ang aming klase, umuwi na ko ng wala sa oras.
Wala akong pakialam kung mambara na naman ang aking ubod ng bait na propesor kaya HINDI na ako nagpaalam sa kanya. Wala din akong pakialam kung sabihan na naman niya akong nagcutting classes ako.
Ang sama-sama na talaga ng pakiramdam ko e.

Natuklasan ko na, eto na nga..
Ang mga red spots ko sa aking buong katawan.
Yun na nga iyon.
May tigdas nga ako.

Kelangan kong i-isolate ang sarili ko sa iba para walang mahawa.
Mas malaking abala kapag ganoon ang mangyayari.
Simula sabado ng gabi, kinulong na ako ng nanay ko sa kwarto ko.
Nakahiga lang ako.
Ayos lang naman sakin yun e.
Pasarap buhay nga e.
Tatawagin ko lang sila at jaran... andiyan na ang kailangan ko.
Maya-maya andiyan na ang pagkain ko.

Ang ayoko lang.
3araw na akong walang ligo.
Ayaw pa kasi nilang umalis e.
Parang gustong-gusto nilang dumikit sa balat ko.
Masakit pa ang lalamunan ko.

Umalis na kayo please.
Kating-kati na ako.
Miss ko na ang tubig...

Mabuhay ang mga RN!

2008-02-24T14:22:00.000+08:00

KUDOS FOR ALL THE 2008 NURSING BOARD PASSERS!

1678 ANGELES, EIZEL MAE LURIÑA
mabuhay ka kapatid!
pinagmamalaki ka namin!

RYM... keep steppin'

2008-02-22T09:59:00.000+08:00

Wala ka talagang patawad.
Wala kang konsiderasyon.
Sa tingin mo ba perpekto ka?
Para kang hindi naging estudyante.
Sana hindi gawin sa anak mo ang ginagawa mo samin.

I felt that this is the most burdensome semester I ever had for my entire college life.
And this is because of my annoying, aggravating, exasperating, infuriating professor – who happens to be Mr. I-DON’T CARE-IF YOU-LEARN-FROM-ME-DO-THIS. Grrrr.
We we’re like taking exams this afternoon and he only gave us 30 minutes to finish it up.
It’s just a simple program though but only 3 of my classmates got it correctly - perfectly. The others have errors and while the others didn’t got it at all. Well, apparently I belong in the error group. I was able to run the program correctly but yea, I have few.. as in very few errors.
But what the heck, I don’t know but he was very irrational when it comes to this times. Instead of giving his students a chance to pass their work, he immediately demands us to leave the room. And me, I was still asking him to get my paper but then he just pays no attention to me. And still insist for me to leave the room. I don’t know what’s up with him. He’s always like that, and now it’s giving us (his students) the impression that he’s really not into teaching. He’s so rude and rough. Imagine, instead of being nice and “somehow” setting a good example to us, he was the one who makes “bara” to his students. Arrrrgh.
Now, I can really see myself next semester sitting on the ADMS class for the second time.
It’s actually my chance to somehow cope with this subject.
But then, it’s him who puts barricades on it.
I feel like crying.
I HATE HIM.. a lot.

A one big HIGHWAY SALUTE for you sir!!!

thoughts to ponder:

2008-02-21T12:57:00.000+08:00

"do you ever wonder if we are the ones who make the moments in our lives..
or are the moments in our lives make who we are?"

tangina niya

2008-02-20T04:15:00.000+08:00

Meron akong gustong ikwentoTungkol sa dating kasintahan ko

Ginawa akong isang tanga

Pinaniwala na ako rin ang mahal nya

Alam nio ba dalawa kami noon sa puso nia

Na pinagsabay ako'y pinaghintay

Pinangakuan na isang araw ako raw ang iibigin

Sasama daw siya sa akin

Ngunit ako'y pinagpalit sa syota niyang patpatin

Chorus:

Tangina niya

Tangina niya..

Ngunit ako'y hindi natuto

Tuloy parin ang katangahan ko

Siya ay muli ko pang tinanggap

Nang siya ay bumalik at iiyak iyak

Tinanong ko siya

Kung ako na ba ang nasa puso niya

Siya ay natulala parang nawawala

Sabay sinabi niyang di niya alam

Ang kanyang isasagot sa akin

Di pa raw niya kayang lisanin

Mahal na mahal niya raw parin ang syota niyang patpatin

Chorus:

Tangina niya

Tangina niya..

Sana ay masagasaan sila

Sana ay masunugan sila

Sana ay makagat siya nang asong ulol

Ng kapitbahay niyang kalbo

Nakatira doon sa may kanto

Sana'y tamaan sila ng bagyo

Diyos ko..oh..oh..

+++++++++++

wahaha, ang cute nito.

take time to listen on this one.

CLICK here.

+++++++++

thanks pareng jake for sending me this one.

muah. pare!

still. still.

2008-02-19T05:01:00.000+08:00

It’s 11:05am and wtf, i got no connection both in internet and TV cable.
Are they connected to each other?
Crap. I don’t have a book to read.
My sister borrowed it a week ago and until now, she’s not returning it yet.

I didn't go to school today and yet I’m super bored.
My mind keeps on pushing me to study but my laziness takes the supremacy.
I’m always like this, procrastination is the word.
I usually delay things until I ended up finishing nothing.
Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. Bad cheetah.

I’m currently listening to some of Bob Marley’s song.
It still doesn’t help to ease the boredom that I’m feeling.

These past few months I’m really hooked up by this non-realistic-yet-happy-world which is the cyberspace. I don’t know if it’s the cause of my laziness lately. But I think it is. Instead of doing more productive things, I prefer to stay in front of my pc and surf the unrealistic world, all day long. It’s quite addictive especially now, I’m getting more active in the blogosphere. I’m starting to love reading the rants of other people and I am so amazed how they write their compositions. It’s as if they were just telling a story to you, face-to-face. It’s eating most of my time now, reading other blogs than to study my school crap arrgh sorry I mean lessons. I think it’s more fun and interesting to read others thoughts than to listen to my uber-boring professors like, MS. Hello-I’m-here-infront-listen-to-me or MR. i-don’t-care-if-you-learn-from-me-do-this-now, I was flabbergasted to know that until now, my school (ehem) is still hiring those kind of professors.
It sucks to see myself sitting in their class and do nothing.

Wait, that’s not what I really want to tell.
I AM JUST BORED TODAY.
I AM SO SLUGGISH IN A WAY!
AND I DON’T FEEL LIKE SMILING TO ANYBODY.

2008-02-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

it happened again.
it was the second time where i was trying to publish a post and dang!! i wasn't signed-in.

the whole momentum was gone.
i'll try to write it up next time.

exam time again.
i haven't made a glimpse on my notes yet.
waaaaa.
i just hope i still can make it.. maybe by miracle.

post valentines entry

2008-02-17T03:27:00.000+08:00

2 days after ang valentines saka ko naisipan isulat ang mga bagay na gusto kong isulat.
i know it isn't too late for me to rant para sa subject kong hapi puso day.
akala ko magiging ALONE ako for that day kasi the night before, nagkaroon kami ng NOT-SO-BIG-FIGHT ng aking hubby/bf/superhero♥.
akala ko wala ng batian portion ang mangyayari.

naisip ko lang, why is it every time valentines day, before that
dang day, palaging may mga couples na nagaaway? is it because they want it to be
super-super special. alam mo yun? war muna bago arrghh..

anyways, back to my story...
i was surprised cause unexpectedly, he came..
weeweet, ang sweet.
wala nang patumpik-tumpik pa, i hugged him tight and kiss him.
i miss him so much para maginarte pa ko.
and then he handed me his gift.

madami yan actually pero naubos ko na.hahaha. ang sweet niya sobra. sobra.

me wit my him. together with our yabang pinoy band. love yah mahal♥.

hey. it's really time to say goodbye

2008-02-14T14:44:00.000+08:00

i had a long day.

'twas my longest day since i started practicing again my career-limiting move, the procrastinating skills .

and i think, i just made a difference today.

...1:00pm - i went to school assuming that it's our long quiz in advance database. But when i got into the room, it was my cruelo professor who surprised me, he was like standing at the corner and looking outside the window, as if he's waiting for someone. he had perfect calling my last name (sometimes my nickname) everytime i enter the room and keeps on reminding me that i'm going to fail his subject. but apparently i think he will win this one, i can feel that i'm going to welcome my adbms for the 2nd time.

ok.. ok.. enough of that. it was a nice start though. it was a super laughing trip day for me and for my 2 uber kulit classmates, mae and lea.

watdapak.

they always make fun of sir.. as in always.

and hey, they nailed it this time.

hahahaha!

moving on..

...3:00pm - tin invited me to join the christian youth fellowship at cog. i didn't hesitate to come with her, after all this is what i really want for the longest time. i mean, to get closer to papa God.

it's nice to meet new friends in school and also in faith. i met dennis, allan, ate mae, tin and i forgot the name of the others. they are so cool, freakin cool, and i feel that, with them i can be myself.

when we arrived on the COG church, we headed to one of their sunday school room and started our fellowship session. we had a simple game and it was really, really fun, i got to chance to laugh real hard without being concious at all. we ended up watching a preaching documentary - short film. then we did reflections afterwards.

...i'm planning to continue what i started today. it feels great knowing that you are super close to papa God. Today i've realized that i was made fearfully and wonderfully. and everyone of us is truly a masterpiece. he has a plan for each and one of us. we just have to wait for the right time. he will never let us down. never.

please keep my mouth shut!

2008-02-13T13:43:00.000+08:00

ayoko magpaka - ~~emo~~.
pero supermaderpaking siyet.
ang lungkot ng gabi.
nakakabadtrip!
ang daming nakakabadtrip.
super.

ikaw. alam kong wala kang pakialam sa personal kong buhay at natutuwa ako doon. dahil wala din akong panahon sa mga taong mahilig mangialam ng buhay ng may buhay.
pero, sa tingin mo ba gusto kong ipagwalang bahala yun?
at hindi ko dinadamay yun dahil sa mga personal kong dahilan.
ewan ko ba.
bigla ka na lang nagbago.
kung naisip mong "ako" ay walang naitutulong sayo at pabigat lang ako,
pasensya ka na..
sobra..
hindi kita pinilit na sumama sakin/samin.
bigla na lang.
alam kong napasubo ka.
alam kong sasabihin mo ding walang personalan.
pero..
nasaktan ako.
nakakabadtrip ka.
peste.

at ikaw naman. nakakainis ka. ang babaw. hindi ko alam kung badtrip ka lang din ngayong araw na ito o anu ba?
pero ang mga salita mo sakin.
para bang, ako na ang sumira ng gabi mo.
sayang.
sayang talaga.
nakakalungkot.
paalam sayo.

nakakaiyak lang dahil nabibilang kayo sa mga taong pinahahalagahan ko.
pero ngayon, mabibilang na lang kayo sa mga taong pinahalagahan ko.
paalam.

madami ng nakasakit sakin.
dadating din ang panahon na kakailanganin niyo ko.
at promise ko....
tangna niyo! tatablahin ko kayo!

walang ganyan sa isteyts

2008-02-12T06:27:00.000+08:00

it's a noun

2008-02-12T03:24:00.000+08:00

as of now, i'm not sure anymore if it's still the path that i really want to take.
boredom, annoyance, mind constipation and dullness usually takes place.
even before, i know this is not what i really want.
i don't how and why i get into it?
it's my fault anyways, i didn't make any research about it.
my aggressiveness/impulsiveness occurs on that part.
i don't know what will happen next or how it will affect my future especially to my career.

it's so lame.
freakin lame.

i don't know what i want anymore.
i'm scared.
IT world really sucks.
i don't fit in.
i know and feel that it's not for me.
---

RYM ~~(as an IT)~~ in the dictionary after 10 years:

Main Entry: Rym
Pronunciation: \'rim\
Function: noun
: penniless; nillionaire, destitute of money
---

watdapak. never in my dreams..
NOOOOOO WAAAAAAAAAAY!

yesterday was a bad day

2008-02-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

To sum my week up, i was absent for almost 3 days.
Last Monday i attended my techwrit class and yea... as always, it was sooo boring.
So my next subject for that day was 7:00pm till 8:00pm and i ended up sitting infront of my pc the whole time. I don't feel like attending that subject. I thought i can pass that world literature even if i don't attend much on that class.

Ok. Jaran... Next day..
1pm class - physics time.
Again.. again.. I was just sitting in front of my pc the whole time, i just don't feel like attending the class that day. I am so burned-out, jaded, exhausted with numbers. I know, that attending classes and making a perfect attendance can be a help for me to somehow pass those, super boring subjects but then i can't fight my own self when it starts to say that "SHE'S NOT IN THE MOOD TO GO TO SCHOOL". I thought of going to Manila to see Rick, that's one of the best thing that i ever did this whole week. We met in Park n' Ride. Went to SM, ate dinner and headed to their place. Being with him is like escaping in the real world. I forgot all my problems right away. Happy thoughts.. Happy thoughts..

...So i just attended my class yesterday, thursday.
After my uber happy moments with rick, it suddenly turned around into 360 degrees. I was really, really, really pissed off by two people yesterday.
First was in physics, i was late then but my professor didn't actually noticed me sneaking inside the room, then i sat beside Gerard and we talked. Then i found out that i was thrown out outside the group in Webpage. He said that it was my professors decision. But then i have this feeling that it was my groupmates who decided to throw me out. I felt i was plutoed but it doesn't really bother me. I wasn't really hurt or scared to be thrown out coz i know in myself that i can do that project even if i'm alone. The only thing that pisses me off is the word that Gerard told me that came from that STUPID, KNOW-IT-ALL GIRL.
I wasn't able to attend the group work coz i was in Rick's place, but then i texted Gerard.
They have this conversation and Gerard just babbled that i was so "kainis daw" coz they already having a hard time doing that project and they were expecting me to be there, and this STUPID, KNOW-IT-ALL girl said that, "ok lang, wala naman naitutulong yun e". FCUK! How did you know. Wait till you see my work. And i will belittle you for that. You always winge for something but look at youself first. Check if you made a big part on that project. Such a bamma!! Grade digger! BITCH! hahahaha. lahat na..
Anyways, I've already talked to Ma'am Bubbles and i was voluntold to go back to my old group which was gerard's group.
I'm currently working on this one.
Until now, i can't help myself not to get mad.
Yesterday, i was almost in the verge of slapping that girl's face. grrr.

My pissing dilemma on that day isn't over. After that physics, it was my ADBMS subject.
Wooo, one of my hatest subject in my entire college life.
When i enter the room, i decided to be snobbish and pretend to look pale.
But then this super duper mega hyper programmer fan boy arrrgh.. professor keeps on bitching me.
He shows my grade and WATDAPAK! my grade was......
I expected that already to be low on his subject but waaaaaa, not that low low.
SHIT!
So, i don't know if he has a PMS on that day cause, he keeps on bitching to everyone.
And i felt, especially to me.

I just had a bad day yesterday.
They're taking me down.
I sing a sad song
just to turned them around.

So, i have to prepare for school for now.
Think i'm late again.
Ciao!

tanginis talaga!

2008-02-06T05:00:00.000+08:00

mas lalo mo kong binigyan ng rason para mas mabwisit sa mukha mo!

TANGINA TALAGA!!!
anu ba nangyari kasi ee.

LECHE!!!
pag eto talaga hindi gumana.
takte ha!!!!!!!!!!
hindi kita mapapatawad!!

matino hanggang sa nabwisit!

2008-02-06T03:10:00.000+08:00

anu na naman kaya mangyayari sakin ngayong araw na to?
wala akong maisulat.
pero nagpupumilit ang mga daliri kong pumitik sa keyboard ko.
hirap.
physics na naman.
wala na naman akong alam sa pesteng numero na to.
anu bang pakialam ko sa mga boltahe at mga capacitors at resistors?
magagamit ko ba yung mga yung kalkulasyon na yun sa mga pangaraw-araw kong pamumuhay.
hay.
tapos..
tapos..
tapos..

ayaw pa kong payagan ni rick umalis mamaya.
minsan lang naman to e.
alam mo yung minsan lang magbirthday ang isang tao sa loob ng isang taon?
tapos, minsan lang ang kasiyahan.
tapos, ayaw pa kong payagan.
ayoko naman suwayin.
ayoko.
ayoko na kasi nga away e.
puteeeeek. yupyup, i'm changing na talaga.
SUPER DUPER MEGA HYPER UBERLY submissive girlfriend na ko.
naputol ang pag-uusap namen.
langyang YM to!
kabadtrip.
kabadtrip tlaga.
langya yung classmate ko na nagpadala ng multi-login na installer.
ubod ng walang kwenta.
wala talaga akong tiwala.
hayup.
parang mas napasama pa.
leche.
leche.
leche,
perwisyo!

disoriented mind

2008-02-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

super aga i swear, HIGHBLOOD na ko! Kainis tong pc na to!
Anu ba toyo nito?
Leche bumabagal.
May virus kaya?..
Ah ewan.

Isang malupit na sigh..
This past few weeks, super lagi akong absent on my 10am-11am class.
So now, I keep on telling myself na i really100x have to attend my Techwrit class today.
shit naman kasi ee.
At first i really find that subject so interesting but as day passes by,
nawalan na ko ng amor sa kanya.
Not just because of the professor but it's also my classmates.
I know i shouldn't be affected on how they act on the room pero ewan ko ba?
I feel irritated and super bored when i'm in that class.
I really don't know, so ngayon, try ko siyang pasukan.
I don't want to think na i'm still the same old friggin RYM na kapag ayaw na, ayaw na.
Isang malupit na sigh..
I just don't know why I'm feeling this way towards this subject.
Well, i have nothing to do but to show up at at least once in a while.
hahaha. If it's in work? Puteeeeeek. AWOL na ko! Terminated. hahaha.
Thank God I'm still in school.

Walang kwentang entry.
Walang kwentang morning.
Walang kwentang PC.
Walang kwentang uniform.
Walang kwentang subject.
Walang kwentang kanta. (jed madela - i believe in you)

Pero atleast i have something na pwedeng ithank you kay papa God.
Thank you for giving me another day to live in this magulo yet happy world.
Thank you for giving me Ric in my life.
Thank you for the endless blessing.
I love you!

neighblogging? anyone?

2008-02-04T14:00:00.000+08:00

We'll this past few days, i'm really into blog hopping. yea, really. especially in celebs blogs. haha. super natatawa ako kasi, i can't imagine myself spying their lives. Pero funny lang kasi pag nababasa mo, talagang you can tell na tao din lang pala sila na nahuhurt and may feelings na hindi pang-"on-cam" lang. So ayun, that's what i'm doing lately plus my audition game. yey! thanks to my super hero/boyfriend. For helping me out installing my audi patcher. Wala kasi akong kahilig-hilig mag DL ng kung anu-ano. Honestly i'm scared kasi baka mavirus-an na naman tong pc ko. Kaya, siya na lang para just incase something happen, i have someone to blame. hehehehe... joke baby!

So back to my blog-hopping/neighblogging story, i went to like a couple of sites ng mga bloggers then narealize ko how "BORING" my site was. Not only the content but the lay-out as well. hahaha. As in super. Nung kinuha ko siya from the template of blogspot, feeling ko kasi it suites my personality. Ewan ko ba, polky na bluish na ewan. Medyo dark siya and sad. Ganoon ba yung feeling ko that time? I don't know and i can't remember. I tried to change it in a more lighter shade so i try looking for another template. I found one kaya lang, magugulo lahat ng mga links ko and hindi ko pa kasi gaano kabisado tong pasikot-sikot nitong blogspot. So wag na lang diba? Pero pag tinitignan ko siya, parang ang lungkot nga niya. walang color and dark. So ngayon pinalitan ko siya... ng color pero polky pa din. hehehe.
Anyways, enjoy reading. Nga pala i just want to tag this girl named PATTY, why? Wala lang, gusto ko lang siyang i-tag. ahehehe.

I miss you baby..
I miss you baby..

my song for the moment.

2008-02-02T16:39:00.000+08:00

beb this is for you!..

senti mode ba ko!?

2008-02-02T16:33:00.000+08:00

I just wanna love you forevermore
And I wanna hold you just like before
And maybe someday, we might just find a way
And we can love forevermore…

ang sad lang ng gabing to.
ewan ko ba?
nakakapanibago.
anu ba ang shape ng moon ngayon?
ah.. sakit sa ulo.
sana magbother kang magtext kahit isa lang.
para naman hindi ako nagaalala dito.

(isang malupit na sigh..)

baby, i want to be with you..
miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na kita!

narsi me..

2008-02-01T10:36:00.000+08:00

one of my narsisstic moments.
la lang. trip ko lang.
papasok. na ko.
magsawa kayo sa mukha kO!

oo, bored ako e.

2008-02-01T10:17:00.000+08:00

super walang magawa kanina sa physics.
sa sobrang wala akong magawa, nagdrawing na lang ako.
babaeng nakatalikod.
pero parang hindi siya nakatalikod.
balak ko sana may ka-holding hands siya,
para sweet
pero hindi talaga kinaya ng powers ko.
nagpapakatrying-hard.

eto pang isa.
nakita ko siya habang nakadungaw ako sa bintana.

puro dyip.
traffic dapat ang gusto ko ipakita jan.
pero hindi pa din kinaya ng powers ko.
sobrang boring kanina.
sarap magsoundtrip lang.

kanina, nalaman ko na may project kami sa webpage design.
gagawa ng website.
i am so excited.
atska nervous.
parang magkasama na yun e.
sana makapasa.
wag lang ako mairita sa mga nagmamarunong.
at aalis ako sa grupo nila.

substance.. substance.. please come out.

2008-02-01T02:23:00.000+08:00

Walang substantial message..
Walang kwenta.

Ang haba na ng naisulat ko.
Nawala lang.
Hindi ba ko naka-sign-in?
O ewan.
May autosaved naman e.
Asan na yun?
Ang haba nun.
Nakakairita.
Nasa loob pa siya ng utak ko at gustong lumabas, nagpupumilit kumawala.
Pero tinatamad na ko.
Nauubos ang oras.
Walang kwenta.
Ang dami niyang gustong sabihin, pero may makikinig ba?

Hay.
Sarap magbuntong-hininga.
Sarap tumambay sa harap ng pc forever.
Walang kausap, siya lang.

....hindi ko alam kung ano to, parang may gusto akong sabihin o gawin o ilabas pero hindi ko alam kung paano.
tanging ang paghinga ko ng malalim ang nakakapawi ng ganitong pakiramdam.
siya lang ata ang nakakaalam.
siya lang.

arrrgh..

2008-01-27T15:07:00.000+08:00

I cant really find the right words to say.
I am so conscious every time i talk or write something.
I think I'm not learning anymore.
I can't absorb stuffs easily.
Now i think it's time for me to take more vitamins.
Food for the brain..
Food for the brain..
Food for the brain..
Crap!!!

Anyways, i met pareng brenz and pretty coni in SM a while ago.
They are so effin nice and great and cool and pretty.
For me, i think they made me happy.
I don't know, maybe this is just a part of my shallowness.
It is very rare, especially this days, for me to meet new people.
The busy sched (wtf, busy scheds) is one of the major reason why i wasn't able to mingle that much to other people.
And secondly, is rick. I don't know, but since we became "US", i felt that i wasn't really in need of having too much friends. Up to now, I'm still feeling that way, but then, I'm natural born friendly so once in a while, and if i have a chance, like this.. why not.

All in all my day is crappy and fun.
Weird.
I miss rick.
And i love him... so much.
And when i say so much. It's like unexplainable so so much..

Thank you Papa God for giving me another day to live.
...for letting me experience good stuffs in the happy world.
...i love you too.

paninibugho

2008-01-26T03:12:00.000+08:00

utang na loob wag kang magtanga-tangahan!
TANGINA naman oh!
Putangina kung yun ang tinitingnan ng kapasidad ng isang tao!
Putangina, bagsak na ko!

"MAHIRAP MAG-ISIP KUNG WALA KA NAMANG ISIP"
-BOBO

Why I Love You?

2008-01-25T14:29:00.000+08:00

Maybe it is one of the most widely-asked questions among those beings
who have "unexplainably" fallen in love with someone else. And just like
those fellows, I, too have been looking and searching for answers to
this question. Eversince I felt this "strange" feeling, I have simply
been trying to figure out what could have possibly caused me to have this
feeling for you. However, up to this moment, I am still yet to know
the answers. All that I have are all my "maybes" and "perhaps" with me.
Maybe, sooner or later, I will have my predicament resolved and perhaps
by that time I will finally have the perfect reasons why I love you.


I love you maybe because I found my future in you. Maybe because you
have inspired and helped me build my dreams, I learned to realize that
you're all that I ever need to live and continue my destiny.


It is true that you have helped me realize my dreams. When my eyes got
their first look at you, I realized I just simply couldn't help myself
but to dream about you in the most special way that I can. I dream you
would be the one I would be sharing my dreams and future with. I dream
you would become my wife and that special fellow whom I would be loving
even to the last of my breath. I dream you would be the mother of my
children and together we would share our ups and downs, triumphs and
defeats. I dream that with your help, we would be able to raise our
children and we would be able to see them grow by time until the moment they
too have realized their dreams have come true.


I dream that when we are together, we would be those if not perfect,
but responsible parents our children would ever dream of. I would be that
father who would be the provider of our family's needs, the pillar of
our home, while you would be that mother who would nurture me and our
children and who would be that wife who would always back me up. I dream
about those mornings in which we are altogether - I am driving the
car, you're beside me, and at the back sited our cuddly children
childishly taunting at each other while we are all heading up to their school.
And after we've gone there, we would then be heading to our workplace.
And before we part, we would give each other a kiss.


I dream about those Sundays. We would go to church and after that we
would go to some places elsewhere our children would wish to go to. And
there we would all enjoy the company of each other.


I dream about those nights in which before we put ourselves to sleep,
we would first have short conversations. We would be talking about our
plans for our children and how could we further show them how much we
love them. We would also reminisce about our past. We would be promising
and swearing each other that we would only love one another. And while
we exchange promises, we are holding each other, kissing each other,
and making love with each other until we have fallen asleep.


Yes, these dreams, whether they would all come true or not, have come
to me because you simply inspire me. Definitely, you are my inspiration
- in everything that I do and will be doing still, there will only be
one person behind all those, and that is only you.


I love you perhaps because you simply own that sweeping aura that
literally always sweep me away. I have really never found someone that
could send insurmountable shock in me except you. Everytime you are around,
I am simply not in myself. You definitely are not as pretty and
gorgeous as Jennifer Lopez or Natalie Portman or other too-many to mention
girls, who I have great crushes and obsession, but I know for sure, you
are more sweeping than those ladies! You're simple yet hidden behind
that simplicity is the great amount of beauty.


Honestly, I have countless dislikes on you. I don't like the way you
move. Yes, there's finesse, however, you sometimes possess qualities
which could simply and easily make guys turn of with you. There's sexiness
in your laughers, however, most of the times they break down barriers -
sometimes they become excessive, really excessive.


I don't like your attitude - you easily laugh upon someone's
imperfection. You always notice the bad side of one's personality. You always
like to talk about personal life of others with our friends. You seem to
know alot about entertainment and celebrities. I don't like how you
idolize some showbiz personalities that sometimes you even wish you were
his wife. Well, maybe I am just jealous about it, but really I hate that.



I don't like when you seem to take for granted others' feelings.
Sometimes you didn't notice you were hurting someone else's feeling already.
Of course, you did that alot of times to me.


I really hate it when you open up conversations with our friends about
your new crushes right in front of me. I really hate the feeling of
seemingly melting like a candle because of your continuing insult of my
heart. I hate to hear from you how you were wishing you were his
girlfriend, it simply breaks my heart into pieces, it shatters my dreams into
minute particles. I really hate it when you ignore my feelings for you.
I have told you I love you and yet I could see no reaction from you. I
hate it when there are time I realize you simply cannot fall in love
with me; not a girl like you could fall in love with a very typical guy
like me.


I really hate how you easily make me cry, just as how you weirdly
easily make me happy. I hate the fact that one smile from you simply makes
my day, simply satisfies my burning need to be noticed by you.

To tell you, I have sobbed the countless teardrops because of you.
There were even times I even wanted to end it all up FOR GOOD simply
because I couldn't bear that eerie thought of you ending up with another guy.
I really hate the thoughts of you slapping my dreams with your
ignorance of my love. I really hate that scary notion that I will never be
able to live my future right if you would be not by my side. You know, I
really hate how you are putting through me all these crazy and
paralyzing things, and that while I am experiencing the agony, there you are
unconsciously continuing to pile up my burden.


Unexplainably, despite all these killing things you have put me
through, still you are the one I really love! I couldn't deny the fact that
your love simply has the complete package - with it and if it would be
mine, I could never wish anything else anymore. My everything is simply
your love!


becoming damn feeling, the quest for your love has simply made me
realize who I really am and what I really want my life to be. Yes, you bring
out in me the true meaning of life - no matter how cruel things could
be, when you experience the beauty of love, everything can still be
beautiful. You simply taught me one important reality - even in the realm
of damnation and hellish world, happiness could still reign!


The fact that I can still feel love in spite all the cruelties of life,
is maybe reason enough for me to give you all my thanks for letting me
love you eventhough my dreams seem to have very little room in
reality. I am really grateful to have you as my loved one!


I love you perhaps because simply I love you. Perhaps because it is
with you that heart beats. I love you maybe because my heart tells me that
you should really be the one I should love. Or maybe I love you
because that is what is written in the book of my fate. I love you maybe
because God wants me to love you and that He chose you above the rest.


Yes, maybe it is my destiny - I am destined to love you and that you
are destined to be loved by me! But whatever the exact reasons maybe,
again it is only my fate that holds the answers. But as for now while I
continue to ask the question "Why I love you?" I would just continue
loving you with all my hopes still with me. Hopefully, I could not just
find the answers to the question "Why I love you?" but more greatly to my
ever most-wishful gift - your love. Hopefully, hopefully...

http://www.peyups.com
written by gravity...

beb, take time to read this.
ang sweet nito.
to yung all time fave ko sa peyups.

say you'll stay

2008-01-25T05:47:00.000+08:00

Hindi ko kinaya.
Sa loob ng isang taon at siyam na buwan nateng pagsasama, ngayon ko lang nakitang bumigay ka.
Alam kong madami-dami na naman akong nasabing masasakit na salita
at alam kong nasaktan kita ng todo.
Tinuluyan mo ang pagalis, at habang palayo ka, hindi ka man lang lumingon.
At hindi mo namamalayan na sa bawat hakbang mo palayo, walang tigil ang luha ko sa pag-agos.
Nakakamatay ang ganitong pakiramdam.
Pasensya ka na, nilamon na naman ako ng matinding kaaway mo - ang PRIDE ko.
Naisip ko na kaya ko naman na wala ka sa buhay ko.
Pero lumalaban ang puso ko, kaya ko nga ba?
..Pinalipas ko ang ilang oras.
Pero habang tumatakbo ito, tumatakbo din ang madaming bagay sa negatibo kong utak.
"Paalam sa mga pangako, Paalam sa mga nabuong pangarap, Paalam sa mga kasiyahan at lambingan."
Paalam sa lahat at sa mga napakaraming bagay na napagsamahan natin.
Pero...

Hindi ko kinaya.
Tinawagan kita.
Hindi ko kasi kaya ng wala ka.
Bumalik ka.
Inalagaan mo ko.
Pinagaling.
Ayokong mawala sa tabi mo.
Ayokong mabuhay ng wala ka.
Mahal na mahal kita.

"Beb, i love you so much. Sorry kung sobrang wala akong pakialam sa mga nararamdaman mo kung minsan. Mahal na mahal kita. Mahal na mahal. Sana hindi ka magsawa sakin.
Ikaw ang buhay ko."

dental 101

2008-01-24T05:06:00.000+08:00

Katatapos lang ng dental session ko kay doktora gracey.
Kakaiba ang sakit naramdaman ko.
Mahigit kumulang isang oras akon nakaupo sa patients chair at nakabuka ang bunganga.
Grabe tong mga tropang ngipin ko.
Mga walang pakisama.
Grabe, traumatic experience ang nangyari.
Akala ko matatanggal na ang buo kong panga.
Sa ngayon, para akong lalagnatin.
Pahinga muna

Goodbye 1st molar tooth.
Goodbye.

Bye...

2008-01-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

Lahat ng bagay na nagsimula ay may katapusan.
Lahat ng bagay nagbabago.

Eto na ang katapusan.
At sorry kung wala akong pagbabago.

Pasensya na.
Ayokong magpanggap na mabait ako.
Dahil hindi.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING and GOODBYE!

Sometimes, ***** is better than cure

2008-01-23T07:18:00.000+08:00

sobrang inaantok na ko talaga.
pero sa tuwing ihihiga ko ang katawan ko sa kama.
LINTEK na sakit ang nararamdaman ko.
LINTEK na pakiramdam na para bang sasabog ang utak mo.
LINTEK na parang ayaw mo ng ihiga ang ulo mo
LINTEK sa lahat ng lintek.

Ngayon ko lang naramdaman to.
Dahil dito 12 oras na akong gising at hindi gaanong makakilos.
Ginagawa akong baldado nitong pakiramdam kong ito.
Abot hanggang kaloob-looban ng tenga ko ang sakit.
Ang baba ko parang inupper-cut ng kung sino.
Ang ulo, grabe parang pinipisil unti-unti hanggang madurog.
Hay.
May pasok pa ko mamaya.
Wala pa akong tulog.
Wala akong ganang ngumit kahit kanino.
Wala akong ganan magsalita.
Nawalan na din ako ng ganang kumain.

Ang hirap.
Sobrang hirap magkasakit ng ngipin.
Sana noon pa e.
Wala din kasi akong pakialam.
Ngayon eto ako, umaatungal na parang aso.
Siyet.
Sleep is all i need.
Please..
Teeth let me sleep.
Please..
Please..
Please..
Zzzzz...

for a while only...

2008-01-22T08:46:00.000+08:00

i'm really starting to enjoy the stuff that i am doing.
i know sooner or later i know it will end.
i'm just enjoying the moment..

walang epal please.
i'm happy.

tablado list

2008-01-18T04:30:00.000+08:00

Noon madalas akong gumagawang mga list ng mga naging ex ko. Ang mga taong nakilala ko at eventually naging friends ko sa 21 years of existence ko. [ang haba nun, promise] So now i thought, why not make "tablado list". Eto naman yung mga taong, hindi mo naman kaaway pero ang sarap tablahin forever. May ilang tao ang magiging present sa list ko na ito. Try ko with their initials. May ilang clue diyan na pwede niyong maging guide.

M.P. and her family - first siya sa list ko [*clap-clap*], kasi siya ang current annoyance ko. Ang plastic niya/nila. Isama mo na ang mga taong nagiging bahagi ng buhay niya. Parang silang sakit na nakakahawa. Madikit ka lang sa kanila magiging ka-uri mo na sila. Totoo talaga ang kasabihang birds of the same feather f*cks ay mali pala, flocks together pala.

L.P. - isa siyang napakalaking kasinungalingan. Kung ako lang c Brother Mike Velarde, kukuha ako ng mga magpapatotoo tungkol sa mga kasinungalingang ipinapalaganap niya. CLUE: Maraming ng naiirita sa kanya at marami na rin ang hindi naniniwala.

J.M. - Half tabla lang ang gsto kong mangyari dito. Naiirita lang ako pag bastos na. Kahit paano, kaibigan ko pa din ito.

E.A. - CLUE: dati ko siyang kumare. Madami na kaming napagdaanan nito. Pero kung ako walang breeding, ano pa ang tawag sa kanya. Matutuwa ka ba sa isang taong masyadong mapagmataas at laging namimintas? [stupid!?] Etong eksenang ito ang nagpatindi sa pagkabadtrip ko sa kanya.

e.a.: hoy, musta na?
rym: eto oks lang back to school.
e.a.: san ka naman napasok? sa pu*^($*&#^ inang bulok na eskwelahan na yan? t*^%$*ng ina, walakang mapapala jan.

::E ano naman kung bulok. May pangarap ako at ikaw ay wala. Kaya manigas ka na lang diyan kakaalaga sa anak mo. Medyo may pagkakapareho sila ni M.P. sa ilang aspeto sa buhay.

J.A. - Siya ang isang patunay sa super cliche na kasabihan na "everything comes to pass". Plus may tablahan factor pa. Yun lang.

Sila lang yun kasalukuyang nasa isip ko. Pero for sure as time passes by, madadagdagan pa yan. Hindi perpekto ang mundo, hindi din perpekto ang buhay. ang taong inaakala mong totoo sayo, yun pala ang mga taong ubod ng peke, fake, tanso or whatever you want to call them. You just have to live with it and accept the fact that all people are not like you and not all people will like you. Mabuhay kang maging masaya. Pahalagahan mo yung mga taong tunay na nagmamahal sayo and show them how much you love them. Sa mga nasa tablado list ko. Tablado na kayo....

10.23.05

2008-01-18T04:00:00.000+08:00

i'm just missing dad.
we all love you here.
and we'll never gonna forget you.
ever.

exam na naman

2008-01-18T03:42:00.000+08:00

woohoo!
ang saya. 1st time kong nakapagpa run ng program sa webpage.

Sa loob ng 6 na taon sa kolehiyo (isama na ang dalawang taon na pagtigil ko), ngayon ko lang naintindihan yang mga program-program na yan.
Pakiramdam ko, noong panahon na yon, hindi pa kayang maabsorb ng utak ko ang mga ganoong klaseng kaalaman.
Siguro sa dami ko ng nakain na bigas at sangkatutak na ulam, natuto na siyang makasipsip ng kaunting knowledge.
Dati-dati ang simpleng getch sa c++ ay hindi ko alam ang ibig sabihin at para saan. hahaha. nakakatuwa.
Ngayon marunong na ko magexecute ng mga commands kahit papaano.
Medyo naiintindihan ko na ang logic sa if-else statement, else-if, select case at iba pa.

Ok balik sa webpage.
Binasa ko maigi yung problem na binigay ni ma'am bubbles [note: mas matanda pa ko sa prof ko ng isang taon.].
Pinakiramdaman ko ang sarili ko.
Kinabahan ako at baka hindi ko na naman magawa ito.
Ang tanga ko na nun.
Inisa-isa ko ang mga errors ko.

rym: ma'am pacheck po.
ma'am: okey,pwede ka ng lumabas.
(samantala sa tabi ko...)
gerard: tapos ka na?
rym: (tango.) oo
gerard: tangna mo.
rym: hahahaha!

Plak!!! yey... napagana ko siya ng normal.
Iba talaga ang bagsik ng bagong gupit.
Natanggal ang mga malas na kumapit sa buhok ko.
Madami-dami yun.
Natira yung mga pampaswerte.
Thank you papa God.
-iLoveyou po.♥
Thank you baby.
-ikaw ang inspiration ko.

BigTime 2005

2008-01-14T15:47:00.000+08:00

Cinemalaya

In association with Blue Water and Arkeomedia presents

An Arkeofilms Production

A Mario and Monster Show

Napanuod ko ang "big time" kanina sa cinema 1.
Noong isang araw ko siya napanuod sa trailer at hinihintay ko siya.
Pero dahil sa aking fish-like memory, ayun, nakalimutan ko siya. Mabuti na lang at nanuod ako ng tv today.
Actually year 2005 pa ito napalabas at isa ito sa mga cinemalaya entries na naipalabas sa mga sinehan noong 2006. Nanalo ito ng Best Screen Play at Best Sound sa Cinemalaya FIlm Festival. But apparently it was just my 1st time to watched it.

Ok naman yung movie. Naalala ko si Jaime Wilson, yung kapatid ni Monique Wilson na dating sumali sa reality tv search na nakalimtuan ko kung saang estasyon at kung anong reality tv search. Siya si Wilson sa movie. Naaliw ako sa kanya sa movie. Nairita ako sa kayabangan niya at natawa sa mga facial expressions. Effective siya as Wilson.

Umiikot ang pelikula sa kagustuhang magkaroon ng drugs business itong si Wilson at naghihingi siya ng 10million sa kanyang super rich dad - which happens to be Don Manolo played by Michael De Mesa na Boss ng isang BIGTIME sindikato. Nakaisip si Wilson na magpanggap na nakidnap siya, at dito pumasok sa eksena si Danny at Jonas - dalawang magkaibigan since grade 4 at mga small time snatcher at si Melody na isang wanna-be actress.

Nakakatuwa ang movie especially the part na nasa isa silang safe house at naglalaro lang sila ng mga sugal buong maghapon. Tanungan portion, galing ng mga punch-line. Nakakatuwa,nakakaaliw.
Rica Peralejo o Kristine Hermosa?
Lolit Solis o Cristy Fermin?
GMA o Cory?
Gusto mo ba ng sinangag?
....anu na naman drama yan?
...sinangag na lang,may kanin pa naman kagabi e.
nakaaliw ang istorya. Catchy siya. Very effective ang mga gumanap.
Isa sa mga pwedeng ipagmalaki sa Independent movie scene.

Napaisip tuloy ako, kailan kaya ako makakagawa ng isang tulad ng bigtime?
Kailan..
Kailan..
Kailan kaya..
Masama bang mangarap.. ng BIG TIME..

timing na timing

2008-01-13T16:19:00.000+08:00

ka talaga.
kung kailan masaya.
kailangan mag manya?

eto na naman.
ilang beses na ba tong nangyari.
naiinis ako kasi lahat na lang ng bagay kailangan alam mo.
kung para kanino ang iniisip ko, sino ang iniisip ko.
lahat ng isulat ko kailangang alam mo para kanino.
para kang pulis at ako ang favorite mong iniiterogate.

ang saya ko pa naman kanina.
ayokong isipin panira ka ng gabi ko.
pero nasira mo.

oo sinira mo..
badtrip ako sayo!

thoughts to ponder:
Don't talk too much when you are mad..
You might say things you don't mean to say.
Making decisions takes time..
Don't rush..
Life is like a chess, 1 wrong move and your game is all messed.

rain, rain go away - come again another day.

2008-01-13T14:42:00.000+08:00

Malungkot ang panahon.
Buong araw ang pag-ulan.
May bagyo ba?
Hindi ko kasi alam e.
Diba gusto mo to? Masaya ka sa ulan.
Oo, pero hindi ko na alam.
Nakakalungkot ang pakiramdam.
O pano yan, magmumukmok ka na naman?
Anung gagawin mo?
Hindi ko alam. HIndi ko kayang ngumiti.
Madami akong iniisip.
Madami na namang problema.
Madami ang pagbabago.
Kakayanin ko pa kaya to?
Tulungan mo ako...

kaguluhan

2008-01-12T12:23:00.000+08:00

after 10 long years..

oo problemado ako.. ang bagal talaga niya.
ewan ko ba kung bakit?

haduket!
naiirita ako.

anong bang problema mo??

please ayusin naman natin to!
eto bang pc ko o yung connection mismo!?

first job.. no hustle..

2008-01-11T04:36:00.000+08:00

eto yun e.

CCA.

miss ko na sila.

miss.

miss ko na sila.

ang pansit at puto.

ang burger at kamay ni zaldy.

ang lechong kawali ni chef.

ang kainan nila mang dante.

yosi sa guard house.

memo galing HR.

araw-araw na sermon.

bunganga ni ma'am cinia.

patagong internet.

sweet corn sa brunch.

sad-sad-an ni paker..

i miss you aliw ni mudra..

utos ni che-che..

pagkairita ni kuya eric..

simangot ni ate arlene kay che-che..

sweetness ni nedz, rose at rhom..

[sis na sila ngayon]

masaya..

nakakamiss.

sila.

pero wala pa ring tatalo kay catoto!

for my one true love.♥

2008-01-10T04:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the 640th day that Ric and I were together.

640 days spent together.

640 days since Ric and I met and been in each other's arms.
The feeling is so overwhelming. Knowing that he's always at my side whenever I need him gives me the security that I will never be alone forever.
Since we've been together, my life has been perfect, shining perfect. I've been happy all over.
And realized that everything had fallen into right places. Literally they are.
Changing my outlooks in life positively, well, blame it all to him. And i'm really thankful for that, really.
He's an answered prayer and truly, a gift from God.

Baby, thank you for the wonderful love that you've given to me. Not for only for the love itself but also for the support and your endless patience.
Rym is nothing without Ric..
Rym cannot survive without Ric..
Rym would be lost without Ric..
..you are my life, my everything.

happy 21st monthsary baby. Few more years... I'll be patiently waiting for that time to come.
YOU ARE MY FIRST TRUE LOVE MY BABY AND ALSO MY LAST..

love you so much.♥

balik eskwela time

2008-01-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

back to school.
medyo excited kasi na-miss ko ang pagsuot ng everyday outfit ko.. ang schoool uniform.

1st class ko for 2008.

10:00am - 11:00am
TECHNICAL WRITING
A-303

si ma'am..
super english na naman ang labanan nito sa room.
ang aga ko nga lang pumasok. may 30 minutes pa akong pwedeng itambay dito sa comp shop ngayon.
kaya eto blog for a while.

pagkatapos nito, uwi muna ako at babalik sa kama.
clinomania

next class ko.

7:00pm - 8:00pm
WORLD LITERATURE
M-308

tagal pa..
anyways, pasok muna ako.
late na naman ako....

saludo ako sayo!

2008-01-07T06:35:00.000+08:00

minsan naaawa ako sayo kasi pakiramdam ko ang sama na ng ginagawa ko.
masama ba iyong sabihin kong may bf na ko at harap-harapang iparamdam sa iyo na hindi kita gusto.
ang kulit mo kasi.
kung anu-ano ang ginagawa mo para lang mapansin kita.
Mawawala ka sa sirkulasyon ng ilang buwan pero bigla kang susulpot at magpaparamdam.
Naiinis ako sa mga tarasa mong paawa-epek.
Sa totoo lang, wala siyang dating.
Pinagtatawanan na lang kita.
Hihingi ka sakin ng pwede mong maging prospect.
Akala mo siguro magseselos ako.
Hello!?
O ayan binigyan na kita.
Wala ka lang kasing diskarte.
tsk.. tsk.. tsk..

goodbye holidays

2008-01-07T06:21:00.000+08:00

Grrrrr... the end of holidays is almost done and yea, I would be back on reality.
My pending school works should be given a bit of more attention because the deadlines are getting nearer. For sure headache would be present in my system again. Before I used to neglect my studies, I honestly don't give a damn whether I would pass my subjects or not. If I don't like my professor, it’s either I will drop the subject or I’ll not pay attention in the class. I was really a pain in the ass both to my parents and my professors. I usually let my classmates do my homework’s and projects. I was very confident that time that as long as it is a group work, I wouldn't flunk. I've been very dependent to them especially in quizzes and exams. I was a very huge parasite in my co-block mates. But in a snap of a finger, everything had changed. I had to stop school because of some circumstances. [I don’t want to go on details here] It suddenly came to a point that I have to work and earn money for us [our family] to unite with the salary of mom because we thought that her salary was insufficient for the whole family. So now, I’m very thankful that I am able to go back to school and continue my studies. And after all those tremendous yet painful events happened in our lives, we we're still here and continuously fighting. I think those dealings teaches me a lesson which makes me somehow a tough person. It made me realize how important the education is. Education makes you cultured and I think learning is fun.
Now, I have to think about a lot of stuffs particularly for my proposals and projects and thesis. But the most important is what to wear in my defense day.
sa tingin mo?

"James, please take good care of my coat . lagot ka sakin pag hindi.."

welcome 2008

2008-01-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

woah, 1st blog for 2008.
Nakauwi din ako sa wakas sa house. Parang naexcite nga si mommy na makita ako e. Habang nasa FX ako, naisip ko, 1st goal ko for 2008, tapusin ang libro na SYBIL. 2006 ko pa ata siya noong unang nahiram kay ric, pero till now, hindi pa din ako tapos basahin siya. Natakot kasi noon... Pero ngayon, i promise to myself na tatapusin ko na siya and hopefully more books to come....

By the way, eto nga pala nangyari sakin noong nakaraang araw, noong mga araw na absent ako sa real world.

January 1, 2008
I spent the new year with my family, mom, yong and me.

Kami lang tatlo ang nagsaya dito sa bahay noong bagong taon. So ang nangyari is masayang malungkot. Supposed to be susunduin ako ni ric pero sa kalungkot-lungkot na pangyayari sa oto nilang si michelle, napagkasunduan naming morning na lang niya ako sunduin.
morning:
jaran!.. dumating na ang hinihintay kong love of my life with his poging-poging nephew na si katalus clyde. [katalus - jargon word ni clyde. whatever that katalus means, si clyde na lang nakakaalam nun.] sinundo nila ako dito sa house at dinala namen and super skateboard na pinahiram sakin ni james.

January 3, 2008
Nagpunta kameng Paseo de Carmona para iselebreyt ang birthday ng ever cool boss ni ric na si Sir Eugene. We're with Ate Mav, Jj, Kerwin, Sid, Sir Elmer and May. Sobrang tuwang-tuwa ako kay Sid noong gabing yun, lalo na nung latter part na ng inuman. Walang tigil ang kakatawa ko, lalo na sa porkchop at chopsuey at tita swarding part. Grabe, ngayon na lang ulit ako nakatawa ng malupit.

Napaisip tuloy ako kung may mga tao ba talagang sadyang KJ o talagang walang pakisama. Siguro dahil sa walang pumapansin sa kanya kung kaya nagyayaya na siya agad umuwi. Pero, hello, birthday mo ba? Sino ka ba? Importante ka ba? At isa pa, MAGANDA KA BA? Kung pakiramdam mo gusto ka ng nakakarami pwes, nagkakamali ka. Para ka lang isang bato sa gilid ng kalsada na kung walang sisipa hindi mapapansin.

Ok, enough about that stone. After ng masayang kasiyahan, naisipan nilang mag-goto sa may San Pedro, isa daw ito sa dinadayo ng nakararami doon, lalong-lalo na ng mga taga ParkHomes. Masaya naman ang kumain ng goto lalo na kung malamig ang panahon at kung madami kang kasama. Saktong-sakto, isama mo na ang sama ng pakiramdam ko ng gabing yon, pero pinilit kong tanggalin dahil sa ayaw kong mai-spoil ang gabi ko.

Wala pang katapusan. Hanggang sa napaos na ko. Naging boses na ng masa ang boses ko, dinaig pa ang lalaki. Paguwi sa crib nila Ric, ayaw pa magpaawat. Walang humpay na kwentuhan na nauwi sa mga horror stuffs. Takutan. Pero hindi naman ako natakot dahil katabi ko ang hero ko at nakapulupot ako sa kanya. Hindi na siguro ako lalapitan ng mga mumu nun.

Pagkatapos nun. Uwian na.
Tulugan.
Zzzz...

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random thoughts

2008-01-01T06:29:00.000+08:00

~new year na. may pagbabago ba?
~sana.. maging okey kami kahit papaano.
~iniisip kaya ako ng mga taong galit sakin? umuusok kaya ilong nila?
~gutom na ko.
~ang sarap maging happy.
~gusto ko ng vans na shoes na.
~miss ko na si ric.
~lapit na magpasukan.
~praning ba si sir?

survey stuff

2008-01-01T05:05:00.000+08:00

2007 has about to end. I browsed my friendster bulletin earlier and I saw this 2007 survey. Sagutan ko lang..

1) Where did you begin 2007?

- AT HOME WITH FAMILY. THEN JANUARY 1, I’M WITH RICK AND HIS WHOLE FAMILY NAMAN. WE WENT TO MALL WITH HIS NEPHEW. THAT WAS MY FIRST TIME TO MEET CLYDE.

2) What was your status by Valentine'sDay?

- SUPER TAKEN!

3) Were you in school (anytime thisyear)?

- YES

4) How did you earn your money?

- I’VE WORKED FOR IT.

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?

- YUP! I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL TWICE FOR A CHECK UP, DUE TO DYSEPSIA AND A BREAST MASS. BUT ALL IN ALL, IT WAS GOOD. NO NEGATIVE FINDINGS.

6) Did you have any encounters withthe police?

- NONE. I’M IN GOOD HANDS NOW.

7) Where did you go on holiday?

- SA HOUSE LANG AND RIC’S PLACE.

8) What did you purchase that was over $1000?

- I DON’T THINK I PURCHASED ANYTHING THAT MUCH COZ I DON’T HAVE THAT MUCH MONEY.

9) Did you know anybody who got married?

- NONE.

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?

- YES. DAD OF RIC’S FRIEND.

11) Did you travel anywhere?

- WALA DIN. UBER-BORING LIFE. LOSER.

12) What concerts/shows did you go to?

- WALA DIN. EVER SINCE I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL, I’VE BEEN THE MOST BORING PERSON EVER.

13) Are you registered to vote?

- SUPPOSED TO BE…

14) Favorite reality tv show?

- AMERICA’S NEXT TOP MODEL, PBB

15) Where do you live now?

- MY PARENT’S HOME

16) Describe your birthday?

- RIC AND I JUST HAD DINNER AT SHAKEY’S. THAT WAS SO SWEET. AND THEN WE WENT HOME.

17) What's one thing you thought you'd never do but did in 2007?

- ENGAGED WITH SOME STUFF THAT I PROMISED NOT TO DO ANYMORE.

18) What has been your favorite moment?

- ALL THE TIMES WHEN RIC AND I WERE TOGETHER.

19) What's something you learned about yourself?

- I CAN DO GOOD AND BE GOOD.

20) Any new additions to your family?

- ANNIE.

21) What was your best month?

- EVERY SINGLE MONTH IS DIFFERENT SO I CAN’T REALLY TELL.

22) What music will you remember 2007 by?

- UMBRELLA BY MANDY MOORE

23) Who has been your best drinkingbuddy?

- MY EVER-LOVING BOY-FRIEND

24) Made new friends?

- YES.

25) New best friend?

- NONE.

26) Favorite Night out?

- WALA. NEVER HAD A MEMORABLE NIGHT OUT THIS YEAR.

27) Favorite Movie of 07?

- CAN’T REMEMBER.

28) Favorite time-killer of 07?

- SURFING THE NET, SURVEYS LIKE THIS, BLOGGING

is it just an insanity? or for real?

2007-12-31T12:59:00.000+08:00

Sa ngayon sobrang sakit ng tagiliran ko, di ko alam kung bakit. Sobra!
Di ko maalala kung ganito din yung sakit na naramdaman ko noong may dyspepsia ako.
Di ako makahinga. Pakiramdam ko parang goma yung lamang loob ko at yung elasticity niya ay sobrang nabanat.
Ang sakit. Ang sakit-sakit.
ouch.
Sabi ng mga tao kina Ric ay sa pancreas daw ito. Shit.
Anu ba yung purpose ng pancreas? Baka daw ulcer daw ito or something.

Etong 2007 madami-dami na akong naramdamang kakaiba sa katawan ko.
Nandiyan ang dyspepsia at ang hinding-hindi ko makakalimutang experience sa kanya.
Grabe ang pakiramdam. Halos ilang araw din akong hindi nakapasok sa trabaho noon.
Pakiramdam ko kapag umunat ako paliyad ay mamatay na ako.
Dumating ang kong tagapagligtas ko na si Rick.
Wala pa ring pakialam ang dyspepsia ko at umatake na naman ito.
Mas lalo itong lumala at hindi na ko pinatulog nito ng buong gabing yon. Hindi na din ako makatayo ng ayos dahil sa naninigas na ang buo kong tiyan. Iyak na ko ng iyak. Alam mo iyong pakiramdam na sobrang antok mo pero hindi ka naman makatulog dahil sa nararamdaman mong sakit. Grabe ang pakiramdam. Dinaig pa ang binugbog.

Nitong November lang, sa sobrang kapraningan ko sa mga sakit. Nagpacheck-up ako sa doctor dahil sa mass na nakapapa ko sa breast ko. Sobrang takot ko noon, pakiramdam ko katapusan na ng career ko. Halos di ako makatulog at makakain. Pakiramdam ko kanser na ito. Pinalala pa
ang hinala ko noon magkaroon ako ng lagnat noong November 1 pagkatapos naming manggaling sa mall ng ate ni Ric. Halos magpakabait ako kay Ric noon. Nilalabanan ko ang takot. Ayokong magpa-checkup kung hindi ko kasama ang nanay ko. Noong inaya niya ko, hindi na ako nagdalawang isip sumama. Natakot ako. Ang sabi ni Doc, hormonal ang nararamdaman ko. Normal lang sa babae dahil nagreready for lactation at iba pa. [naisip ko, pwede na kong maging ina, hehehe.] Pero under observation pa siya. Babalik pa ko ngayong January. Hindi na ako gaanong natatakot pero nandoon pa din ang kaba.

Nitong taong 2007, napagdesisyunan ko na itigil ang halos 5 taong bisyo ko at ito ang paninigarilyo. Naperfect ko ito [except na lang sa ilang pagkakataon at nitong 28 na napayosi ako ng mga ilang sticks din]. Pati ang pag-inom ng alak ay hindi ako nahirapang iwasan. Naging occasional drinker ako. Madalas hindi na ako makaubos ng isang bote ng sanmig Lite. Noong nagsimula akong mag-lie-low sa mga paborito kong hobby, doon mas naging mahina ang katawan ko. Doon ko mas naramdaman itong mga kakaibang sakit ko. Hindi ko alam kung tama ba o hindi ang naging desisyon ko sa pagquit sa mga ito. Pero either way, masaya na din ako. Nalagpasan ko ang mga ito.
Alam kong hindi pa ko handang magba-bye sa happy world.
Hindi pa….

pre-New year and post-Christmas party

2007-12-30T13:09:00.002+08:00

Last 28, we had a pre-New year and post-Christmas party at Jinky's newly revamped house. We bring and share foods to each other. Em brought lumpia and meat balls as well as a pack of chocolates for dessert. Joyce made a salad for everyone and a graham cake. Von brought crispy fried chickens and it was very in demand that night. Jinky had the siomai stuffs which are also very in demand to my hubby. hahaha. Plus the sauce, it is so so yummy. Jimmy brought a spicy barbecue. And me, I brought not-so-nice spaghetti. Supposed to be, we we're going to cook a carbonara for everyone but then, because of the hectic schedule of my hubby we have just decided to buy cooked spaghetti.

~yummy foods~

Everybody had fun that night and like what Ric said, “Everybody was drunk and wasted.” Yea literally they are. Von was dead drunk, and he was like kissing the toilet bowl and throwing-up so hard. Thanks to Jean for the money she sent. We bought bottle tequila and that is to blame for von and ric’s throwing-up show. Sad to say but we’re really not complete here, Jean and Ponza are not present. But though Jean is absent in this episode, still her hubby, Rossel was able to make to it.

~the coolest peeps on earth~

*all the girls we’re wearing stripes shirts. From left to right: Tongie, Ric, Bj, Von [what’s up with the blurred pix?]

*all the boys have bloated tummy.

All in all, everybody was happy and in high spirits. Having this kind of get-together makes our relationship much stronger. And even though we don’t see each other often and most of the time silence occurs, we know that we have each other on our side. And the nice thing is, we don’t get tired of each others love. Love yah, best-friends…

Till, next time.
More pics are available HERE.

anu ba yun?

2007-12-30T13:02:00.000+08:00

i don't know why i can't open my personal page on the other blogsite. ang weird lang. bakit kaya? anyways, i made this blog site and i will just enjoy my stay here na lang muna.