disoriented mind

super aga i swear, HIGHBLOOD na ko! Kainis tong pc na to!
Anu ba toyo nito?
Leche bumabagal.
May virus kaya?..
Ah ewan.

Isang malupit na sigh..
This past few weeks, super lagi akong absent on my 10am-11am class.
So now, I keep on telling myself na i really100x have to attend my Techwrit class today.
shit naman kasi ee.
At first i really find that subject so interesting but as day passes by,
nawalan na ko ng amor sa kanya.
Not just because of the professor but it's also my classmates.
I know i shouldn't be affected on how they act on the room pero ewan ko ba?
I feel irritated and super bored when i'm in that class.
I really don't know, so ngayon, try ko siyang pasukan.
I don't want to think na i'm still the same old friggin RYM na kapag ayaw na, ayaw na.
Isang malupit na sigh..
I just don't know why I'm feeling this way towards this subject.
Well, i have nothing to do but to show up at at least once in a while.
hahaha. If it's in work? Puteeeeeek. AWOL na ko! Terminated. hahaha.
Thank God I'm still in school.

Walang kwentang entry.
Walang kwentang morning.
Walang kwentang PC.
Walang kwentang uniform.
Walang kwentang subject.
Walang kwentang kanta. (jed madela - i believe in you)

Pero atleast i have something na pwedeng ithank you kay papa God.
Thank you for giving me another day to live in this magulo yet happy world.
Thank you for giving me Ric in my life.
Thank you for the endless blessing.
I love you!

neighblogging? anyone?

We'll this past few days, i'm really into blog hopping. yea, really. especially in celebs blogs. haha. super natatawa ako kasi, i can't imagine myself spying their lives. Pero funny lang kasi pag nababasa mo, talagang you can tell na tao din lang pala sila na nahuhurt and may feelings na hindi pang-"on-cam" lang. So ayun, that's what i'm doing lately plus my audition game. yey! thanks to my super hero/boyfriend. For helping me out installing my audi patcher. Wala kasi akong kahilig-hilig mag DL ng kung anu-ano. Honestly i'm scared kasi baka mavirus-an na naman tong pc ko. Kaya, siya na lang para just incase something happen, i have someone to blame. hehehehe... joke baby!

So back to my blog-hopping/neighblogging story, i went to like a couple of sites ng mga bloggers then narealize ko how "BORING" my site was. Not only the content but the lay-out as well. hahaha. As in super. Nung kinuha ko siya from the template of blogspot, feeling ko kasi it suites my personality. Ewan ko ba, polky na bluish na ewan. Medyo dark siya and sad. Ganoon ba yung feeling ko that time? I don't know and i can't remember. I tried to change it in a more lighter shade so i try looking for another template. I found one kaya lang, magugulo lahat ng mga links ko and hindi ko pa kasi gaano kabisado tong pasikot-sikot nitong blogspot. So wag na lang diba? Pero pag tinitignan ko siya, parang ang lungkot nga niya. walang color and dark. So ngayon pinalitan ko siya... ng color pero polky pa din. hehehe.
Anyways, enjoy reading. Nga pala i just want to tag this girl named PATTY, why? Wala lang, gusto ko lang siyang i-tag. ahehehe.




I miss you baby..
I miss you baby..

my song for the moment.

beb this is for you!..

senti mode ba ko!?

I just wanna love you forevermore
And I wanna hold you just like before
And maybe someday, we might just find a way
And we can love forevermore…

ang sad lang ng gabing to.
ewan ko ba?
nakakapanibago.
anu ba ang shape ng moon ngayon?
ah.. sakit sa ulo.
sana magbother kang magtext kahit isa lang.
para naman hindi ako nagaalala dito.

(isang malupit na sigh..)

baby, i want to be with you..
miss na miss na miss na miss na miss na kita!

narsi me..

one of my narsisstic moments.
la lang. trip ko lang.
papasok. na ko.
magsawa kayo sa mukha kO!

oo, bored ako e.

super walang magawa kanina sa physics.
sa sobrang wala akong magawa, nagdrawing na lang ako.
babaeng nakatalikod.
pero parang hindi siya nakatalikod.
balak ko sana may ka-holding hands siya,
para sweet
pero hindi talaga kinaya ng powers ko.
nagpapakatrying-hard.

eto pang isa.
nakita ko siya habang nakadungaw ako sa bintana.


puro dyip.
traffic dapat ang gusto ko ipakita jan.
pero hindi pa din kinaya ng powers ko.
sobrang boring kanina.
sarap magsoundtrip lang.

kanina, nalaman ko na may project kami sa webpage design.
gagawa ng website.
i am so excited.
atska nervous.
parang magkasama na yun e.
sana makapasa.
wag lang ako mairita sa mga nagmamarunong.
at aalis ako sa grupo nila.

substance.. substance.. please come out.

Walang substantial message..
Walang kwenta.

Ang haba na ng naisulat ko.
Nawala lang.
Hindi ba ko naka-sign-in?
O ewan.
May autosaved naman e.
Asan na yun?
Ang haba nun.
Nakakairita.
Nasa loob pa siya ng utak ko at gustong lumabas, nagpupumilit kumawala.
Pero tinatamad na ko.
Nauubos ang oras.
Walang kwenta.
Ang dami niyang gustong sabihin, pero may makikinig ba?

Hay.
Sarap magbuntong-hininga.
Sarap tumambay sa harap ng pc forever.
Walang kausap, siya lang.


....hindi ko alam kung ano to, parang may gusto akong sabihin o gawin o ilabas pero hindi ko alam kung paano.
tanging ang paghinga ko ng malalim ang nakakapawi ng ganitong pakiramdam.
siya lang ata ang nakakaalam.
siya lang.