arrrgh..

I cant really find the right words to say.
I am so conscious every time i talk or write something.
I think I'm not learning anymore.
I can't absorb stuffs easily.
Now i think it's time for me to take more vitamins.
Food for the brain..
Food for the brain..
Food for the brain..
Crap!!!

Anyways, i met pareng brenz and pretty coni in SM a while ago.
They are so effin nice and great and cool and pretty.
For me, i think they made me happy.
I don't know, maybe this is just a part of my shallowness.
It is very rare, especially this days, for me to meet new people.
The busy sched (wtf, busy scheds) is one of the major reason why i wasn't able to mingle that much to other people.
And secondly, is rick. I don't know, but since we became "US", i felt that i wasn't really in need of having too much friends. Up to now, I'm still feeling that way, but then, I'm natural born friendly so once in a while, and if i have a chance, like this.. why not.

All in all my day is crappy and fun.
Weird.
I miss rick.
And i love him... so much.
And when i say so much. It's like unexplainable so so much..

Thank you Papa God for giving me another day to live.
...for letting me experience good stuffs in the happy world.
...i love you too.

paninibugho

utang na loob wag kang magtanga-tangahan!
TANGINA naman oh!
Putangina kung yun ang tinitingnan ng kapasidad ng isang tao!
Putangina, bagsak na ko!



"MAHIRAP MAG-ISIP KUNG WALA KA NAMANG ISIP"
-BOBO

Why I Love You?

Maybe it is one of the most widely-asked questions among those beings
who have "unexplainably" fallen in love with someone else. And just like
those fellows, I, too have been looking and searching for answers to
this question. Eversince I felt this "strange" feeling, I have simply
been trying to figure out what could have possibly caused me to have this
feeling for you. However, up to this moment, I am still yet to know
the answers. All that I have are all my "maybes" and "perhaps" with me.
Maybe, sooner or later, I will have my predicament resolved and perhaps
by that time I will finally have the perfect reasons why I love you.


I love you maybe because I found my future in you. Maybe because you
have inspired and helped me build my dreams, I learned to realize that
you're all that I ever need to live and continue my destiny.


It is true that you have helped me realize my dreams. When my eyes got
their first look at you, I realized I just simply couldn't help myself
but to dream about you in the most special way that I can. I dream you
would be the one I would be sharing my dreams and future with. I dream
you would become my wife and that special fellow whom I would be loving
even to the last of my breath. I dream you would be the mother of my
children and together we would share our ups and downs, triumphs and
defeats. I dream that with your help, we would be able to raise our
children and we would be able to see them grow by time until the moment they
too have realized their dreams have come true.


I dream that when we are together, we would be those if not perfect,
but responsible parents our children would ever dream of. I would be that
father who would be the provider of our family's needs, the pillar of
our home, while you would be that mother who would nurture me and our
children and who would be that wife who would always back me up. I dream
about those mornings in which we are altogether - I am driving the
car, you're beside me, and at the back sited our cuddly children
childishly taunting at each other while we are all heading up to their school.
And after we've gone there, we would then be heading to our workplace.
And before we part, we would give each other a kiss.


I dream about those Sundays. We would go to church and after that we
would go to some places elsewhere our children would wish to go to. And
there we would all enjoy the company of each other.


I dream about those nights in which before we put ourselves to sleep,
we would first have short conversations. We would be talking about our
plans for our children and how could we further show them how much we
love them. We would also reminisce about our past. We would be promising
and swearing each other that we would only love one another. And while
we exchange promises, we are holding each other, kissing each other,
and making love with each other until we have fallen asleep.


Yes, these dreams, whether they would all come true or not, have come
to me because you simply inspire me. Definitely, you are my inspiration
- in everything that I do and will be doing still, there will only be
one person behind all those, and that is only you.


I love you perhaps because you simply own that sweeping aura that
literally always sweep me away. I have really never found someone that
could send insurmountable shock in me except you. Everytime you are around,
I am simply not in myself. You definitely are not as pretty and
gorgeous as Jennifer Lopez or Natalie Portman or other too-many to mention
girls, who I have great crushes and obsession, but I know for sure, you
are more sweeping than those ladies! You're simple yet hidden behind
that simplicity is the great amount of beauty.


Honestly, I have countless dislikes on you. I don't like the way you
move. Yes, there's finesse, however, you sometimes possess qualities
which could simply and easily make guys turn of with you. There's sexiness
in your laughers, however, most of the times they break down barriers -
sometimes they become excessive, really excessive.


I don't like your attitude - you easily laugh upon someone's
imperfection. You always notice the bad side of one's personality. You always
like to talk about personal life of others with our friends. You seem to
know alot about entertainment and celebrities. I don't like how you
idolize some showbiz personalities that sometimes you even wish you were
his wife. Well, maybe I am just jealous about it, but really I hate that.



I don't like when you seem to take for granted others' feelings.
Sometimes you didn't notice you were hurting someone else's feeling already.
Of course, you did that alot of times to me.


I really hate it when you open up conversations with our friends about
your new crushes right in front of me. I really hate the feeling of
seemingly melting like a candle because of your continuing insult of my
heart. I hate to hear from you how you were wishing you were his
girlfriend, it simply breaks my heart into pieces, it shatters my dreams into
minute particles. I really hate it when you ignore my feelings for you.
I have told you I love you and yet I could see no reaction from you. I
hate it when there are time I realize you simply cannot fall in love
with me; not a girl like you could fall in love with a very typical guy
like me.


I really hate how you easily make me cry, just as how you weirdly
easily make me happy. I hate the fact that one smile from you simply makes
my day, simply satisfies my burning need to be noticed by you.

To tell you, I have sobbed the countless teardrops because of you.
There were even times I even wanted to end it all up FOR GOOD simply
because I couldn't bear that eerie thought of you ending up with another guy.
I really hate the thoughts of you slapping my dreams with your
ignorance of my love. I really hate that scary notion that I will never be
able to live my future right if you would be not by my side. You know, I
really hate how you are putting through me all these crazy and
paralyzing things, and that while I am experiencing the agony, there you are
unconsciously continuing to pile up my burden.


Unexplainably, despite all these killing things you have put me
through, still you are the one I really love! I couldn't deny the fact that
your love simply has the complete package - with it and if it would be
mine, I could never wish anything else anymore. My everything is simply
your love!


becoming damn feeling, the quest for your love has simply made me
realize who I really am and what I really want my life to be. Yes, you bring
out in me the true meaning of life - no matter how cruel things could
be, when you experience the beauty of love, everything can still be
beautiful. You simply taught me one important reality - even in the realm
of damnation and hellish world, happiness could still reign!


The fact that I can still feel love in spite all the cruelties of life,
is maybe reason enough for me to give you all my thanks for letting me
love you eventhough my dreams seem to have very little room in
reality. I am really grateful to have you as my loved one!


I love you perhaps because simply I love you. Perhaps because it is
with you that heart beats. I love you maybe because my heart tells me that
you should really be the one I should love. Or maybe I love you
because that is what is written in the book of my fate. I love you maybe
because God wants me to love you and that He chose you above the rest.


Yes, maybe it is my destiny - I am destined to love you and that you
are destined to be loved by me! But whatever the exact reasons maybe,
again it is only my fate that holds the answers. But as for now while I
continue to ask the question "Why I love you?" I would just continue
loving you with all my hopes still with me. Hopefully, I could not just
find the answers to the question "Why I love you?" but more greatly to my
ever most-wishful gift - your love. Hopefully, hopefully...

http://www.peyups.com
written by gravity...

beb, take time to read this.
ang sweet nito.
to yung all time fave ko sa peyups.

say you'll stay

Hindi ko kinaya.
Sa loob ng isang taon at siyam na buwan nateng pagsasama, ngayon ko lang nakitang bumigay ka.
Alam kong madami-dami na naman akong nasabing masasakit na salita
at alam kong nasaktan kita ng todo.
Tinuluyan mo ang pagalis, at habang palayo ka, hindi ka man lang lumingon.
At hindi mo namamalayan na sa bawat hakbang mo palayo, walang tigil ang luha ko sa pag-agos.
Nakakamatay ang ganitong pakiramdam.
Pasensya ka na, nilamon na naman ako ng matinding kaaway mo - ang PRIDE ko.
Naisip ko na kaya ko naman na wala ka sa buhay ko.
Pero lumalaban ang puso ko, kaya ko nga ba?
..Pinalipas ko ang ilang oras.
Pero habang tumatakbo ito, tumatakbo din ang madaming bagay sa negatibo kong utak.
"Paalam sa mga pangako, Paalam sa mga nabuong pangarap, Paalam sa mga kasiyahan at lambingan."
Paalam sa lahat at sa mga napakaraming bagay na napagsamahan natin.
Pero...

Hindi ko kinaya.
Tinawagan kita.
Hindi ko kasi kaya ng wala ka.
Bumalik ka.
Inalagaan mo ko.
Pinagaling.
Ayokong mawala sa tabi mo.
Ayokong mabuhay ng wala ka.
Mahal na mahal kita.

"Beb, i love you so much. Sorry kung sobrang wala akong pakialam sa mga nararamdaman mo kung minsan. Mahal na mahal kita. Mahal na mahal. Sana hindi ka magsawa sakin.
Ikaw ang buhay ko."

dental 101

Katatapos lang ng dental session ko kay doktora gracey.
Kakaiba ang sakit naramdaman ko.
Mahigit kumulang isang oras akon nakaupo sa patients chair at nakabuka ang bunganga.
Grabe tong mga tropang ngipin ko.
Mga walang pakisama.
Grabe, traumatic experience ang nangyari.
Akala ko matatanggal na ang buo kong panga.
Sa ngayon, para akong lalagnatin.
Pahinga muna

Goodbye 1st molar tooth.
Goodbye.

Bye...

Lahat ng bagay na nagsimula ay may katapusan.
Lahat ng bagay nagbabago.

Eto na ang katapusan.
At sorry kung wala akong pagbabago.

Pasensya na.
Ayokong magpanggap na mabait ako.
Dahil hindi.


THANKS FOR EVERYTHING and GOODBYE!

Sometimes, ***** is better than cure

sobrang inaantok na ko talaga.
pero sa tuwing ihihiga ko ang katawan ko sa kama.
LINTEK na sakit ang nararamdaman ko.
LINTEK na pakiramdam na para bang sasabog ang utak mo.
LINTEK na parang ayaw mo ng ihiga ang ulo mo
LINTEK sa lahat ng lintek.

Ngayon ko lang naramdaman to.
Dahil dito 12 oras na akong gising at hindi gaanong makakilos.
Ginagawa akong baldado nitong pakiramdam kong ito.
Abot hanggang kaloob-looban ng tenga ko ang sakit.
Ang baba ko parang inupper-cut ng kung sino.
Ang ulo, grabe parang pinipisil unti-unti hanggang madurog.
Hay.
May pasok pa ko mamaya.
Wala pa akong tulog.
Wala akong ganang ngumit kahit kanino.
Wala akong ganan magsalita.
Nawalan na din ako ng ganang kumain.

Ang hirap.
Sobrang hirap magkasakit ng ngipin.
Sana noon pa e.
Wala din kasi akong pakialam.
Ngayon eto ako, umaatungal na parang aso.
Siyet.
Sleep is all i need.
Please..
Teeth let me sleep.
Please..
Please..
Please..
Zzzzz...

for a while only...

i'm really starting to enjoy the stuff that i am doing.
i know sooner or later i know it will end.
i'm just enjoying the moment..



walang epal please.
i'm happy.

tablado list

Noon madalas akong gumagawang mga list ng mga naging ex ko. Ang mga taong nakilala ko at eventually naging friends ko sa 21 years of existence ko. [ang haba nun, promise] So now i thought, why not make "tablado list". Eto naman yung mga taong, hindi mo naman kaaway pero ang sarap tablahin forever. May ilang tao ang magiging present sa list ko na ito. Try ko with their initials. May ilang clue diyan na pwede niyong maging guide.

M.P. and her family - first siya sa list ko [*clap-clap*], kasi siya ang current annoyance ko. Ang plastic niya/nila. Isama mo na ang mga taong nagiging bahagi ng buhay niya. Parang silang sakit na nakakahawa. Madikit ka lang sa kanila magiging ka-uri mo na sila. Totoo talaga ang kasabihang birds of the same feather f*cks ay mali pala, flocks together pala.

L.P. - isa siyang napakalaking kasinungalingan. Kung ako lang c Brother Mike Velarde, kukuha ako ng mga magpapatotoo tungkol sa mga kasinungalingang ipinapalaganap niya. CLUE: Maraming ng naiirita sa kanya at marami na rin ang hindi naniniwala.

J.M. - Half tabla lang ang gsto kong mangyari dito. Naiirita lang ako pag bastos na. Kahit paano, kaibigan ko pa din ito.

E.A. - CLUE: dati ko siyang kumare. Madami na kaming napagdaanan nito. Pero kung ako walang breeding, ano pa ang tawag sa kanya. Matutuwa ka ba sa isang taong masyadong mapagmataas at laging namimintas? [stupid!?] Etong eksenang ito ang nagpatindi sa pagkabadtrip ko sa kanya.

e.a.: hoy, musta na?
rym: eto oks lang back to school.
e.a.: san ka naman napasok? sa pu*^($*&#^ inang bulok na eskwelahan na yan? t*^%$*ng ina, walakang mapapala jan.

::E ano naman kung bulok. May pangarap ako at ikaw ay wala. Kaya manigas ka na lang diyan kakaalaga sa anak mo. Medyo may pagkakapareho sila ni M.P. sa ilang aspeto sa buhay.

J.A. - Siya ang isang patunay sa super cliche na kasabihan na "everything comes to pass". Plus may tablahan factor pa. Yun lang.

Sila lang yun kasalukuyang nasa isip ko. Pero for sure as time passes by, madadagdagan pa yan. Hindi perpekto ang mundo, hindi din perpekto ang buhay. ang taong inaakala mong totoo sayo, yun pala ang mga taong ubod ng peke, fake, tanso or whatever you want to call them. You just have to live with it and accept the fact that all people are not like you and not all people will like you. Mabuhay kang maging masaya. Pahalagahan mo yung mga taong tunay na nagmamahal sayo and show them how much you love them. Sa mga nasa tablado list ko. Tablado na kayo....

10.23.05

i'm just missing dad.
we all love you here.
and we'll never gonna forget you.
ever.

exam na naman

woohoo!
ang saya. 1st time kong nakapagpa run ng program sa webpage.

Sa loob ng 6 na taon sa kolehiyo (isama na ang dalawang taon na pagtigil ko), ngayon ko lang naintindihan yang mga program-program na yan.
Pakiramdam ko, noong panahon na yon, hindi pa kayang maabsorb ng utak ko ang mga ganoong klaseng kaalaman.
Siguro sa dami ko ng nakain na bigas at sangkatutak na ulam, natuto na siyang makasipsip ng kaunting knowledge.
Dati-dati ang simpleng getch sa c++ ay hindi ko alam ang ibig sabihin at para saan. hahaha. nakakatuwa.
Ngayon marunong na ko magexecute ng mga commands kahit papaano.
Medyo naiintindihan ko na ang logic sa if-else statement, else-if, select case at iba pa.

Ok balik sa webpage.
Binasa ko maigi yung problem na binigay ni ma'am bubbles [note: mas matanda pa ko sa prof ko ng isang taon.].
Pinakiramdaman ko ang sarili ko.
Kinabahan ako at baka hindi ko na naman magawa ito.
Ang tanga ko na nun.
Inisa-isa ko ang mga errors ko.

rym: ma'am pacheck po.
ma'am: okey,pwede ka ng lumabas.
(samantala sa tabi ko...)
gerard: tapos ka na?
rym: (tango.) oo
gerard: tangna mo.
rym: hahahaha!

Plak!!! yey... napagana ko siya ng normal.
Iba talaga ang bagsik ng bagong gupit.
Natanggal ang mga malas na kumapit sa buhok ko.
Madami-dami yun.
Natira yung mga pampaswerte.
Thank you papa God.
-iLoveyou po.♥
Thank you baby.
-ikaw ang inspiration ko.

BigTime 2005

Cinemalaya

In association with Blue Water and Arkeomedia presents

An Arkeofilms Production

A Mario and Monster Show

Napanuod ko ang "big time" kanina sa cinema 1.
Noong isang araw ko siya napanuod sa trailer at hinihintay ko siya.
Pero dahil sa aking fish-like memory, ayun, nakalimutan ko siya. Mabuti na lang at nanuod ako ng tv today.
Actually year 2005 pa ito napalabas at isa ito sa mga cinemalaya entries na naipalabas sa mga sinehan noong 2006. Nanalo ito ng Best Screen Play at Best Sound sa Cinemalaya FIlm Festival. But apparently it was just my 1st time to watched it.

Ok naman yung movie. Naalala ko si Jaime Wilson, yung kapatid ni Monique Wilson na dating sumali sa reality tv search na nakalimtuan ko kung saang estasyon at kung anong reality tv search. Siya si Wilson sa movie. Naaliw ako sa kanya sa movie. Nairita ako sa kayabangan niya at natawa sa mga facial expressions. Effective siya as Wilson.

Umiikot ang pelikula sa kagustuhang magkaroon ng drugs business itong si Wilson at naghihingi siya ng 10million sa kanyang super rich dad - which happens to be Don Manolo played by Michael De Mesa na Boss ng isang BIGTIME sindikato. Nakaisip si Wilson na magpanggap na nakidnap siya, at dito pumasok sa eksena si Danny at Jonas - dalawang magkaibigan since grade 4 at mga small time snatcher at si Melody na isang wanna-be actress.

Nakakatuwa ang movie especially the part na nasa isa silang safe house at naglalaro lang sila ng mga sugal buong maghapon. Tanungan portion, galing ng mga punch-line. Nakakatuwa,nakakaaliw.
Rica Peralejo o Kristine Hermosa?
Lolit Solis o Cristy Fermin?
GMA o Cory?
Gusto mo ba ng sinangag?
....anu na naman drama yan?
...sinangag na lang,may kanin pa naman kagabi e.
nakaaliw ang istorya. Catchy siya. Very effective ang mga gumanap.
Isa sa mga pwedeng ipagmalaki sa Independent movie scene.

Napaisip tuloy ako, kailan kaya ako makakagawa ng isang tulad ng bigtime?
Kailan..
Kailan..
Kailan kaya..
Masama bang mangarap.. ng BIG TIME..

timing na timing

ka talaga.
kung kailan masaya.
kailangan mag manya?

eto na naman.
ilang beses na ba tong nangyari.
naiinis ako kasi lahat na lang ng bagay kailangan alam mo.
kung para kanino ang iniisip ko, sino ang iniisip ko.
lahat ng isulat ko kailangang alam mo para kanino.
para kang pulis at ako ang favorite mong iniiterogate.

ang saya ko pa naman kanina.
ayokong isipin panira ka ng gabi ko.
pero nasira mo.

oo sinira mo..
badtrip ako sayo!


thoughts to ponder:
Don't talk too much when you are mad..
You might say things you don't mean to say.
Making decisions takes time..
Don't rush..
Life is like a chess, 1 wrong move and your game is all messed.

rain, rain go away - come again another day.

Malungkot ang panahon.
Buong araw ang pag-ulan.
May bagyo ba?
Hindi ko kasi alam e.
Diba gusto mo to? Masaya ka sa ulan.
Oo, pero hindi ko na alam.
Nakakalungkot ang pakiramdam.
O pano yan, magmumukmok ka na naman?
Anung gagawin mo?
Hindi ko alam. HIndi ko kayang ngumiti.
Madami akong iniisip.
Madami na namang problema.
Madami ang pagbabago.
Kakayanin ko pa kaya to?
Tulungan mo ako...

kaguluhan

after 10 long years..

oo problemado ako.. ang bagal talaga niya.
ewan ko ba kung bakit?

haduket!
naiirita ako.

anong bang problema mo??


please ayusin naman natin to!
eto bang pc ko o yung connection mismo!?

first job.. no hustle..

eto yun e.

CCA.

miss ko na sila.

miss.

miss.

miss.

miss ko na sila.

ang pansit at puto.

ang burger at kamay ni zaldy.

ang lechong kawali ni chef.

ang kainan nila mang dante.

yosi sa guard house.

memo galing HR.

araw-araw na sermon.

bunganga ni ma'am cinia.

patagong internet.

sweet corn sa brunch.

sad-sad-an ni paker..

i miss you aliw ni mudra..

utos ni che-che..

pagkairita ni kuya eric..

simangot ni ate arlene kay che-che..

sweetness ni nedz, rose at rhom..

[sis na sila ngayon]

masaya..

nakakamiss.

nakakamiss.

nakakamiss.

sila.

pero wala pa ring tatalo kay catoto!

for my one true love.♥

Yesterday was the 640th day that Ric and I were together.

640 days spent together.

640 days since Ric and I met and been in each other's arms.
The feeling is so overwhelming. Knowing that he's always at my side whenever I need him gives me the security that I will never be alone forever.
Since we've been together, my life has been perfect, shining perfect. I've been happy all over.
And realized that everything had fallen into right places. Literally they are.
Changing my outlooks in life positively, well, blame it all to him. And i'm really thankful for that, really.
He's an answered prayer and truly, a gift from God.

Baby, thank you for the wonderful love that you've given to me. Not for only for the love itself but also for the support and your endless patience.
Rym is nothing without Ric..
Rym cannot survive without Ric..
Rym would be lost without Ric..
..you are my life, my everything.

happy 21st monthsary baby. Few more years... I'll be patiently waiting for that time to come.
YOU ARE MY FIRST TRUE LOVE MY BABY AND ALSO MY LAST..


love you so much.♥

balik eskwela time

back to school.
medyo excited kasi na-miss ko ang pagsuot ng everyday outfit ko.. ang schoool uniform.

1st class ko for 2008.

10:00am - 11:00am
TECHNICAL WRITING
A-303

si ma'am..
super english na naman ang labanan nito sa room.
ang aga ko nga lang pumasok. may 30 minutes pa akong pwedeng itambay dito sa comp shop ngayon.
kaya eto blog for a while.

pagkatapos nito, uwi muna ako at babalik sa kama.
clinomania

next class ko.

7:00pm - 8:00pm
WORLD LITERATURE
M-308

tagal pa..
anyways, pasok muna ako.
late na naman ako....

saludo ako sayo!

minsan naaawa ako sayo kasi pakiramdam ko ang sama na ng ginagawa ko.
masama ba iyong sabihin kong may bf na ko at harap-harapang iparamdam sa iyo na hindi kita gusto.
ang kulit mo kasi.
kung anu-ano ang ginagawa mo para lang mapansin kita.
Mawawala ka sa sirkulasyon ng ilang buwan pero bigla kang susulpot at magpaparamdam.
Naiinis ako sa mga tarasa mong paawa-epek.
Sa totoo lang, wala siyang dating.
Pinagtatawanan na lang kita.
Hihingi ka sakin ng pwede mong maging prospect.
Akala mo siguro magseselos ako.
Hello!?
O ayan binigyan na kita.
Wala ka lang kasing diskarte.
tsk.. tsk.. tsk..

goodbye holidays

Grrrrr... the end of holidays is almost done and yea, I would be back on reality.
My pending school works should be given a bit of more attention because the deadlines are getting nearer. For sure headache would be present in my system again. Before I used to neglect my studies, I honestly don't give a damn whether I would pass my subjects or not. If I don't like my professor, it’s either I will drop the subject or I’ll not pay attention in the class. I was really a pain in the ass both to my parents and my professors. I usually let my classmates do my homework’s and projects. I was very confident that time that as long as it is a group work, I wouldn't flunk. I've been very dependent to them especially in quizzes and exams. I was a very huge parasite in my co-block mates. But in a snap of a finger, everything had changed. I had to stop school because of some circumstances. [I don’t want to go on details here] It suddenly came to a point that I have to work and earn money for us [our family] to unite with the salary of mom because we thought that her salary was insufficient for the whole family. So now, I’m very thankful that I am able to go back to school and continue my studies. And after all those tremendous yet painful events happened in our lives, we we're still here and continuously fighting. I think those dealings teaches me a lesson which makes me somehow a tough person. It made me realize how important the education is. Education makes you cultured and I think learning is fun.
Now, I have to think about a lot of stuffs particularly for my proposals and projects and thesis. But the most important is what to wear in my defense day.
sa tingin mo?

"James, please take good care of my coat . lagot ka sakin pag hindi.."

welcome 2008

woah, 1st blog for 2008.
Nakauwi din ako sa wakas sa house. Parang naexcite nga si mommy na makita ako e. Habang nasa FX ako, naisip ko, 1st goal ko for 2008, tapusin ang libro na SYBIL. 2006 ko pa ata siya noong unang nahiram kay ric, pero till now, hindi pa din ako tapos basahin siya. Natakot kasi noon... Pero ngayon, i promise to myself na tatapusin ko na siya and hopefully more books to come....

By the way, eto nga pala nangyari sakin noong nakaraang araw, noong mga araw na absent ako sa real world.

January 1, 2008
I spent the new year with my family, mom, yong and me.

Kami lang tatlo ang nagsaya dito sa bahay noong bagong taon. So ang nangyari is masayang malungkot. Supposed to be susunduin ako ni ric pero sa kalungkot-lungkot na pangyayari sa oto nilang si michelle, napagkasunduan naming morning na lang niya ako sunduin.
morning:
jaran!.. dumating na ang hinihintay kong love of my life with his poging-poging nephew na si katalus clyde. [katalus - jargon word ni clyde. whatever that katalus means, si clyde na lang nakakaalam nun.] sinundo nila ako dito sa house at dinala namen and super skateboard na pinahiram sakin ni james.

January 3, 2008
Nagpunta kameng Paseo de Carmona para iselebreyt ang birthday ng ever cool boss ni ric na si Sir Eugene. We're with Ate Mav, Jj, Kerwin, Sid, Sir Elmer and May. Sobrang tuwang-tuwa ako kay Sid noong gabing yun, lalo na nung latter part na ng inuman. Walang tigil ang kakatawa ko, lalo na sa porkchop at chopsuey at tita swarding part. Grabe, ngayon na lang ulit ako nakatawa ng malupit.

Napaisip tuloy ako kung may mga tao ba talagang sadyang KJ o talagang walang pakisama. Siguro dahil sa walang pumapansin sa kanya kung kaya nagyayaya na siya agad umuwi. Pero, hello, birthday mo ba? Sino ka ba? Importante ka ba? At isa pa, MAGANDA KA BA? Kung pakiramdam mo gusto ka ng nakakarami pwes, nagkakamali ka. Para ka lang isang bato sa gilid ng kalsada na kung walang sisipa hindi mapapansin.

Ok, enough about that stone. After ng masayang kasiyahan, naisipan nilang mag-goto sa may San Pedro, isa daw ito sa dinadayo ng nakararami doon, lalong-lalo na ng mga taga ParkHomes. Masaya naman ang kumain ng goto lalo na kung malamig ang panahon at kung madami kang kasama. Saktong-sakto, isama mo na ang sama ng pakiramdam ko ng gabing yon, pero pinilit kong tanggalin dahil sa ayaw kong mai-spoil ang gabi ko.

Wala pang katapusan. Hanggang sa napaos na ko. Naging boses na ng masa ang boses ko, dinaig pa ang lalaki. Paguwi sa crib nila Ric, ayaw pa magpaawat. Walang humpay na kwentuhan na nauwi sa mga horror stuffs. Takutan. Pero hindi naman ako natakot dahil katabi ko ang hero ko at nakapulupot ako sa kanya. Hindi na siguro ako lalapitan ng mga mumu nun.

Pagkatapos nun. Uwian na.
Tulugan.
Zzzz...


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random thoughts

~new year na. may pagbabago ba?
~sana.. maging okey kami kahit papaano.
~iniisip kaya ako ng mga taong galit sakin? umuusok kaya ilong nila?
~gutom na ko.
~ang sarap maging happy.
~gusto ko ng vans na shoes na.
~miss ko na si ric.
~lapit na magpasukan.
~praning ba si sir?

survey stuff

2007 has about to end. I browsed my friendster bulletin earlier and I saw this 2007 survey. Sagutan ko lang..

1) Where did you begin 2007?

- AT HOME WITH FAMILY. THEN JANUARY 1, I’M WITH RICK AND HIS WHOLE FAMILY NAMAN. WE WENT TO MALL WITH HIS NEPHEW. THAT WAS MY FIRST TIME TO MEET CLYDE.

2) What was your status by Valentine'sDay?

- SUPER TAKEN!

3) Were you in school (anytime thisyear)?

- YES

4) How did you earn your money?

- I’VE WORKED FOR IT.

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?

- YUP! I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL TWICE FOR A CHECK UP, DUE TO DYSEPSIA AND A BREAST MASS. BUT ALL IN ALL, IT WAS GOOD. NO NEGATIVE FINDINGS.

6) Did you have any encounters withthe police?

- NONE. I’M IN GOOD HANDS NOW.

7) Where did you go on holiday?

- SA HOUSE LANG AND RIC’S PLACE.

8) What did you purchase that was over $1000?

- I DON’T THINK I PURCHASED ANYTHING THAT MUCH COZ I DON’T HAVE THAT MUCH MONEY.

9) Did you know anybody who got married?

- NONE.

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?

- YES. DAD OF RIC’S FRIEND.

11) Did you travel anywhere?

- WALA DIN. UBER-BORING LIFE. LOSER.

12) What concerts/shows did you go to?

- WALA DIN. EVER SINCE I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL, I’VE BEEN THE MOST BORING PERSON EVER.

13) Are you registered to vote?

- SUPPOSED TO BE…

14) Favorite reality tv show?

- AMERICA’S NEXT TOP MODEL, PBB

15) Where do you live now?

- MY PARENT’S HOME

16) Describe your birthday?

- RIC AND I JUST HAD DINNER AT SHAKEY’S. THAT WAS SO SWEET. AND THEN WE WENT HOME.

17) What's one thing you thought you'd never do but did in 2007?

- ENGAGED WITH SOME STUFF THAT I PROMISED NOT TO DO ANYMORE.

18) What has been your favorite moment?

- ALL THE TIMES WHEN RIC AND I WERE TOGETHER.

19) What's something you learned about yourself?

- I CAN DO GOOD AND BE GOOD.

20) Any new additions to your family?

- ANNIE.

21) What was your best month?

- EVERY SINGLE MONTH IS DIFFERENT SO I CAN’T REALLY TELL.

22) What music will you remember 2007 by?

- UMBRELLA BY MANDY MOORE

23) Who has been your best drinkingbuddy?

- MY EVER-LOVING BOY-FRIEND

24) Made new friends?

- YES.

25) New best friend?

- NONE.

26) Favorite Night out?

- WALA. NEVER HAD A MEMORABLE NIGHT OUT THIS YEAR.

27) Favorite Movie of 07?

- CAN’T REMEMBER.

28) Favorite time-killer of 07?

- SURFING THE NET, SURVEYS LIKE THIS, BLOGGING